Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
do you know how bad it is when you have all those thoughts and ideas and visions and creations in your mind, that all want to get out, but they can’t? because you’re just so *** useless that you don’t have a way to let them out. so they just stay in your head. forever. and new ones won’t stop coming. so soon, they’re all you are.
i hate this so *** much.
i literally just got rid of most of my overdue assignments, and now i have 3 new ones. and they’re big. time consuming. difficult. *** ***.
even the teachers are getting tired of me leaving my stuff undone.
at least that’s what it feels like.
because they don’t know.
they don’t know how hard it is. how overwhelming. and i can’t explain it, because i don’t know why either.
when i’m getting stressed, i always get that part of a song in my head that goes “breathe, breathe, breathe..”.
trying not to overthink something rn. not very great in that lol.
bbl.