Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i think.. today might be the day my heart gave up too.
i won’t seek love, or acceptance, or happiness anymore. i’ll just exist, until it’s time.
my heart will be locked up completely, because something needs to keep it safe from this world.
but also.. i’m afraid i’m not able to love anymore. like.. at all. it’s almost like.. if you go, i won’t stop you. i want to, but i’m just too tired to. i’m sorry.
i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry.
i’m ready.. i’m ready to go.. please..
the feeling of the heart sinking.
i’m drowning. barely holding myself above the surface.
being distracted is the closest thing to being okay i can do.
“be in danger or be the danger.”
