Everyone keeps leaving.

I can't take another person leaving. I can't do it.

I've lost everyone in my life. I wish I was being dramatic too but i'm not. From friends, family, pets, *** even myself. I can't keep doing it.

I'm told i'm a strong person, a good person but i'm really not.

If another person tries to leave me I will beg them to stay. I will beg until I am on my knees sobbing because I can't loose another person I love, another person I care about.

I'm so angry at them and that hurts. I miss them with every piece of me and yet i'm so angry that they left like it was easy. That they left me alone in a world that I am drowning in.

I want to be loved the way that I love. For someone to stay, to be just as loyal as I am. I don't even care if they're a bad person at this point. I don't care if it hurts because I can't do it.

I'm isolating myself, i know I am. I've always been private, never really talking about myself but it's getting worse. Yet i'd rather lie and create a whole facade than let anyone else in because I know that they'll leave. That i'll be left absolutely *** shattered again because everyone leaves.

I'm so alone. I feel it like a concave in my chest, a boulder in my mind. Yet I flat out refuse to get close to anyone, to let myself feel that love, that care because I can't do it again.