Idek

I'm moving on. I still love my ex, i don't think i'll ever stop. However, i'm not talking to her a lot, put some distance between us.

I've spent time accepting what happened and accepting that yes, she'll always be an important person to me but she isn't going to be the most important person.

I've met a guy. He's sweet and funny and i'm enjoying talking to him.

I'm terrified. What if i'm not good enough? I'm a lot, my mental health is a mess, it always has been. I'm a hard person to care about, to love. I have a lot of walls built, a lot of demons and idk if i'll ever heal from everything.

But i'm moving on. I'm trying. I think i deserve some credit.

I'm not doing great lately. I had a breakdown and have been spiralling since.

I never thought I'd have a future and now that i'm living it, i have no clue what to do. I'm lost and exhausted.

Maybe there's hope though? Maybe I don't have to be dragged down by myself anymore, maybe I can be someone.