Im fake
Im fake asf and it's really negatively affecting my life, starting to realize that I've been lying my way through life always wearing a mask and now that habit is biting me in the butt. I didn't even realize I was doing it. I have to stop. I missing out on so much growth if I'd just let myself earn things instead of lying to get them. Being a bull pooper isn't worth it. I think I've been stuck in life because I'm so phony. Install phony I dress phony I lie about my dating life I lie about my finances my family my friends all I ever do is lie. I lie so much I could fall asleep while standing. I'm a liar and I hate it and I hate how long it took me to realize liar is spelled with an A and not an E. 😡 I wonder if my anxiety and antisocial tendencies are due to me not wanting to have to lie my way through another interpersonal interaction. Like it's exhausting always being fake Jesus Christ. I hate work because I feel I have to lie my way through the work day, but you know what's annoying I don't have to lie. But being honest now is terrifying I've built a fabricated identity so different from my real self that to be real now would be an utter shock to anyone who ever engages with me. There is not one person on earth that I'm real with. And I hate that. That is why I'm single. I can't fathom finding anyone who'd want the real me and I don't even know how to be the real me.
@affableTown5581
I have known those like this and i felt they lied because they did not think they were interesting enough or whatever so small lies became bigger and was in every situation.
The thing is do you like the real you? my guess is no ... because you are not giving others a chance to like or dislike the real you. Most people around you already know you are telling tales... one or two things that are inconsistent is all that is needed to see through.... Even if they pretend they buy all you are putting out someone out there knows.
Now here is the question can you come clean yes... could be an end to some relationships and trust will need to be earned back.
will they like you for you Maybe
but if they know you are full of it and you continue on believe me they will let anyone else know not to take anything you say as real. how many already know and either talk behind you back or feel sorry for you.
@toughTiger6481 good advice, honestly I love myself but most people where I'm at don't like me at all. It's a survival mechanism, I try to survive in places I don't belong around people who want nothing to do with a person like me, there's probably few who would like me but naybe not with all my baggage. And everyone always talks about me behind my back. Part of my fakeness is acting like it doesn't bother me or I don't notice. I caught it on multiple occasions.
i look at it this way you are carry all that baggage around it gets heavy ...put it down... i think most people even if they do not admit it understand how easy lying to fit in can be.
it can be hard to remember what version you told whom and as you are so busy maintaining your fake persona ... your missing out. either face it with the people you deal with or move on and start fresh with people who get to see you.
I had friends and we made notes of all the whoppers this one person told and how the timelines and things did not make sense .... it was a drinking game of every time we found that does not makes sense ........i finally saw what we were doing was mean.
So i just talked honestly told her how her stories do not line up and if she worried people were making fun they were .......but she could stop it by stopping the lies and coming clean.... liked her much better when she quit the lies.
@toughTiger6481 that's good advice I think with me it's a little deeper than that, I think relocation is a good goal for me, thank you for the kind words and advice
@toughTiger6481 I'm starting to realize you were really right with this response, I appreciate you dude