I'm sorry
She needed me and I wasn't there.
I, she's fine. She's not dead or anything. She didn't hurt herself but she needed me and I wasn't there.
I wasn't there. That should feel freeing. I shouldn't feel this guilty but fùck. I wasn't there for her when she needed me.
I promised her I would be and I broke my promise.
She's my ex, we broke up last year but always kept close. I'm still madly in love with her, she's moved on.
Recently, I stopped talking to her. I told her I still loved her and she told me that I need to stop. So I did. I stopped. I put her chat on mute and this morning I looked and she needed me.
She needed me. She was so upset and she needed me and I wasn't there.
I don't have to be there anymore. I know that. But I want to be. Maybe that's unhealthy but I messed up. I messed up.
@Malecfan
I'm sorry this happened!
I'm sorry you are carrying so much pain and weight and indecision.
I'm not going to patronise you and tell you how to feel or pretend you can just click your fingers and move on.
If she moved on and asks you to leave her be!
You need to find a way to do this and to heal and she needs to ask for help somewhere else, it's not fair to tell you to go but then ask you to help!
💕💜