Jemmy And Her Very Loud Thoughts

Life-ing Update: 2/11/2025 3:22 PM

Omg I cleaned my room but I def need to clean out my drawers

searching on amazon for a nightstand because my new alarm clock is getting power from my computer lol and I would like it to have an outlet

life update Tuesday 2/18/2025 2:30 PM

There was a gas leak over the weekend but we're fine and the house didn't catch fire and we're all good :D

Still trying to do everything I can before the week is over and my assignments in. Getting kicked out of this program would be such a yikes thing to do, so let's not do that

lmao last night I had a dream that an anime character from an anime I really really like proposed to me and my goofy butt said yeah and my friend next to me hyped me up and I think that was more cringe because that friend should have slapped me silly smh 👁️👄👁️ The ring was super pretty though and honestly it was something I genuinely liked but anyways that dream was CRINGE

Update: 2/26/2025 7:27 PM

I was having a good day until I got hella sick. But the good news is that I figured out how to hack my brain and lock in. The bad news is that I might stay home tomorrow because DAMN this sucks.

There's a hackathon this weekend, I hope I'm not sick to heck so I can go :D

I was video calling one of my friends and I was so embarrassed because I was heaving out the dryest fricking coughs ever Q_Q

Update 3/11/2025 9:18 AM

I'm not sick anymore but dang that was crazy

I still struggle with time management. I may be neurospicy.

I'm trying very hard though. I need this.

I'm still doing trash but there is less trash :D

Today is my Dad's bday.

I also hope I get some of my work done, on top of that, there's a 3D Modeling contest being hosted by this company, I plan to try and create something, it would be cool.

Anyways, I've been doing better about my sleep schedule, although my household isn't particularly helpful when everyone is so noisy.

Update March 26th 9:40 PM

Okay I'm doing so much better. I'm glad I took Monday off after all the happened Sunday night (was freaking out, couldn't sleep, imposter syndrome go brrrr)

Luckily I am getting my work done now like actually (I still have missing assignments but hey, I can get it done for sure if I keep up with what I have now oof)

I can't believe next week, we'll be in April...😮‍💨

The way that I probably have a vitamin deficiency is crazy

Also I feel awful constantly oops I should journal about that or something

I meant to lock in over the weekend but I got distracted and my brain sucks

Hopefully if I pull through the rest of this spring I can graduate from this program and do something else. My Dad is trying to get me to go to uni, but given the current climate of the United States and how things are looking, I want to get a job through the program and move on. Y'all know what I mean, right? I don't understand why I HAVE to go to uni, especially right now?

I'm thinking about doing online college or something while I work. But I do like the idea of uni it's just not right now. 

Also I was sick earlier this week yikes, trying to put myself first but it's so hard when everything, even minor things, keep getting tossed at me almost all the time. Sheesh, how do you guys do it? How did 12th grade me do it? It's insane how much changed in a year. My brother is graduating high school this spring. Wild times.

My Mom sent some teas over and that's helping though.

Sunday June 22 6:10 PM

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Still feeling that urge to just crash and burn and give up but somehow I'm still around I guess. At least physically anyway. Waiting for my doctor to call me back but if not today I'll definitely do it today or Tuesday. I need my meds. I was diagnosed with a Vitamin D and an iron deficiency  a few weeks ago and I have yet to be given my meds 😐

I also begged to be examined by a therapist or something and am waiting on news on that. Told them about how I felt in my day to day and everything I struggled with and the symptoms of ADHD and Autism I'd been fighting for years and years and years that reared it's head harder than ever and made my life miserable.

So uh...yeah...

I cleaned some of my room today...mostly my desk and my dresser and my laundry but it's not where it's supposed to be. There's a spare chair with a crap ton of stuff on it and my closet's all crazy and there's stuff in the corner that i said I'd find a place for later (and then I didn't)

If anyone still checks this thread, send beams pls :3

— Jennyyyyyy

Update 10/1/2025 10:15 PM

Just writing to let you guys know I'm still here, my life has been looping since the last one but I'll do a proper update this week because it was a lot lol

But I'm much better and moving on to bigger things. Next month is my 5th cupiversary so I'll see what I do with that. (It's on a Saturday!)

I'm also finally drafting a YA (Young Adult) novel while I'm job searching. It's been something I always wanted to do since I was on the teenie side and I'm finally getting to it this year.

Love y'all