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Thursday

...See more A few notes before I begin No one has to read this, I just want it out there One if I share a location it is because I do not live there anymore. Two I will not be using anyone's real name, just fake names to protect their privacy and my anonymity Three- general trigger warnings (though there will be more) Abuse, Assault, Parentalization of a child, bullying, self harm, eating disorder, abandonment, violence, divorce, drugs, alcohol, death, cancer So let's get to it. I was born on March 20th 2008, in a small town in Northern New jersey. Early infant life for me was amazing. My parents adored me, my half brother thought I was his world. I guess I should talk about them a bit before I get more into my life, set the characters We will call my mom Mom just because it's simple. My mom came from a broken home, her parents got divorced at a young age, her dad was a not so great person (rip grandpa), and she was often left to fend for herself. She has various mental issues, such as a hormonal imbalance that is directly related to her periods (I think it's pmdd?) And ptsd. My dad, who we shall call dad, came from a rough home too, but it was a good one after his biological dad moved out. I won't talk about him. I never knew him. My paternal grandfather (poppop) has no blood relation to me but he is my grandfather. My half brother is 6 years older than me. His mother and my dad were married before my mom and dad were married. He used to visit every Sunday and Monday. Anyway things were great in early life. My dad is a tattooist and we struggled with money a bit but we were happy. My brother once brought me to school to show all his classmates his little sister, the one he loves more than anything in the world. This lasted for about 6 months. His mother, we shall call her Karen, was jealous of my mother. Karen wanted my dad for herself. My mom and Karen used to take my brother to the park when he was littletogether, they were friends. Once I was born, that changed. They blamed me for something I couldn't control. 21 months after my birth, on December 20th 2009, my little sister, Fawn (not Her real name, some people here know it, but I wanna keep it private) was born. Fawn was born dead. Her umbilical cord had wrapped around her neck. She wasn't breathing. My dad was able to rescue her, and she was alive. She still is alive, annoying but alive. They thought she had mental issues, and a possible brain tumor when she was an infant. My parents were very much preoccupied with her care, that once I was able, I took care of myself. So imagine a mom and a dad taking care of a little infant and a 2 year old making her own breakfast. It was clear she was the favorite. I became so independent I didn't need anyone in my family. We did end up moving at some point, my parents filed for bankruptcy, and we were evicted. We moved into a new house, where we lived for 8 years. My sister was spoiled. I was not. I remember early on wondering what was for dinner and my sister having like super expensive baby food and I got a peice of bread. I knew money wastight, I knew not to complain. Trust me, me honing in on the fact that my sister migjt have been disabled is important. Very early on I knew that my sister was a priority. To the point where I would skip meals as a toddler, to feed my sister to make sure she had enough. My earliest memory Is a tough one. My parents were having a rough patch in there marriage, and they were probably going to get divorced. My mom was on the floor of her bedroom sobbing, and I was holding her head, whispering sweet comforting phrases, telling her it was okay. I told her to talk to daddy, to work it out. I wasn't old enough to be out of pull-ups and i was being my mom's therapist. I remember another time I was watching my sister sleep. She is my world, I am extremely protective of her, I needed to keep her safe, and my parents were fighting. I went downstairs to male sure no one was hurt, I brought my little princess band aids, and all I saw was my mom driving away. I said daddy when is mom coming home and he said I don't know. She returned a few hours later. When my dad was atwork, her anger was guarded at me. I used to get screamed at for the craziest stuff. As a small child she threw a plate at me because I asked her if I could have a snack right before dinner was done. My home life was crap. I started acting out. I would get so mad and I would screamed at the top of my lungs that I wanted my entire family to d!e and I f**king hated all of them, and I just wished they would go away. When I was 4 years old I was diagnosed with oppositional defiance disorder. Basically my brain could not follow simple commands, and instead of doing what I was told. I would do the opposite. Every time. This was NOT TRUE!!!!! I was a child being abused. I was acting out because I was hurting. When I was in preschool everyone would talk to me like I was dumb. "Nevaeh can you hand me the pen" "nevaeh, everyone is lining up, can you line up?" "Nevaeh it's time to go home, we need you to go home. We can't sit in the corner and scream about how we want to stay, can you go home? Do you feel like going home? You will come back tomorrow" I understood when to behave. I'm going to keep writing soon, I gotta clean my room

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...See more So I had an amazing weekend at my band trip, and i just wanted to post about it ! So Thursday we got to the church and i got to see my friends, it was my one friend, lets call her V's birthday (:. we had a 2 hour drive and me and V and our other friend O all talked the way there. When we got to the hotel, it was HUGE !! We were located on the 15th floor, so we rode the elevator up. I was sharing my hotel room with 3 girls, E,V,O. We got unpacked and hung out. Then we had rehearsal from 6-9:30. Then after rehearsal there was a mandatory jazz performance I wasn't required to go to, so i went back to my room and rested. I ran down all 15 flights of stairs on the way to rehearsal in my boot. The girls i was sitting next to were so so so so nice ! 2 people didn't show up so instead of 23rd chair, i was 21st. We ran through 3 pieces, it was fun ! Then we went back to my directors room and hung out and talked til 11, which was hotel curfew, and we went back into our room, and talked some more, and went to bed at like 2. The next morning, we all had rehearsal at 8:30 am. i got up and showered and headed to rehearsal. E,V, and O were all in the 11-12 red band, i was in 9-10. The one girl i was sitting next to, A, i actually sat in front of her 2 years ago, and she was my friend and we instantly clicked and talked it was amazing. The other girl, K, was so nice, shes a red haired lefty too, we instantly got really really close and were doing silly goofy things and she was the most amazing friend I've made so fast ! We had a lunch break at 11:30, for 2 hours. I went up to my room, and me and E,V, and O hung out, talked and ate. We went on the balcony and there were these boys down there heeheheheh. they wanted a cookie so we threw one at them. they ate it. we also threw a piece of cheese. we could've gotten kicked out for doing it, but oh well. the boys wanted our room number, and we told them the room that the only boy on our trip was staying in. then we walked around and asked anyone we saw if they wanted a mini oreo. then i had rehearsal from 1:30-4:30. it went awesome. then we went to dinner at a pizza place, it was so yummy, i shared a pizza with V. then we went to an orcestral performance by the local college, and it was awesome, they brought there dancers. Then 2 more hours of rehearsal ahahah. Then we had a another break, and we walked around asking more people about cookies. Then we went back to the room and I got to help my friends with their college homework, it was so much fun i loved it. Then we all went to bed, then yesterday morning i had rehearsal at 8am, til 9. getting ready for my concert. I had some time and bought a t shirt and hung out and got ready, then had dress rehearsal at 12:45, for my concert at 1:30. i got my period like 2 minutes before i went on -w- but it was awesome, I played so well. I will never see K again, shes moving to colorado and doesn't have a phone. that makes our friendship even more special. I rode home with my director and i slept in the car lollll. it was an exhausting weekend and im still recovering but i loved the weekend and i didn't want it to end. there i was happy and i was having fun and i felt special. it was the closest i ever felt to being normal, save fo when im with my boyfriend. @tinywhisper11 @lovemymoonflowers @fluffysheep8 @darkerplaces

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