Just a open space
Well so, this is just a space for idk what lol.. I just wanna write some things and it's better to do it here where no is actually told to listen.. so, if anyone wanna read and reply.. you can do that, I don't mind it. I don't know for how long I will even continue this but whatever and for introduction.. I am 20 years old, from India, I got no social life so you are just going to hear a rant about loneliness.
What I am is just a mess up. I don't know a thing I am doing, the moment I try everything just falls down. I am very tired.
Somehow, isolation turns out to be the only answer because I hate what happens after trying
I wish everything could just stop, all I do is just struggle. I feel like I don't even have ah I am too tired to write.. why do I go out of my way, I won't now. It's okay. I should just give up on all hopes
Why do bad things happen.. kbhi idhr toh udhr, I feel so bad whenever someone I know and care about go through something bad
I wonder who and where I will be if I get better
And I will stop journalling too I believe when I do get better, so yeah will leave this site. Ah not like I can just wake up and get better or maybe I can, or maybe not. Idk
I can't trust a single person really. I just don't have it within me. I wish I could trust that I am safe with someone, that person just isn't going to get up one day and just leave. But everyone is just going to leave. I am just too cautious now that I don't trust anyone because if I do I will be hurt again. And someone who's always too cautious is always anxious.
