Just a open space
Well so, this is just a space for idk what lol.. I just wanna write some things and it's better to do it here where no is actually told to listen.. so, if anyone wanna read and reply.. you can do that, I don't mind it. I don't know for how long I will even continue this but whatever and for introduction.. I am 20 years old, from India, I got no social life so you are just going to hear a rant about loneliness.
Maybe it's good that I denied it.
Okay what is happening? My mind is just stopped, what do I need to process. I wanted to talk but now here it is and I am just not able to. Why am I so tiring. I just don't know what to do.
What should I do? Should I continue it, should I just let it go, should I say things but ah man. My mind isn't working at all, what is making me feel anxious at this moment. I need to heal, I will heal and be better..I will do it.
I will do everything needed but I ain't going to let moments like these slip by just cause I can't feel mentally well. I will be better.
Though obviously this is not what I will get. This was probably just meant to let me know that I need to do better. I don't think it's gonna stay, well ah okay.. it's okayy, am I being negative or just realistic?
And I used to believe that I am not an introvert at all but now I feel so anxious about what to say or what not to.. what the f is this
Okay idk what's happening at this point, I guess my brain need some time to process things.. well, it's okay. I tried, that's all I could.
Okay, I don't know what's happening at all. I don't like this when I don't feel in control, I am just strange sometimes. Why do I feel so weird that my mind stops like this
Did I blow up things or what
I guess I should have waited more for the rollercoaster of emotions to pass.
