Just a open space
Well so, this is just a space for idk what lol.. I just wanna write some things and it's better to do it here where no is actually told to listen.. so, if anyone wanna read and reply.. you can do that, I don't mind it. I don't know for how long I will even continue this but whatever and for introduction.. I am 20 years old, from India, I got no social life so you are just going to hear a rant about loneliness.
Now, whenever I even talk to someone or anything. I am not looking for a friendship or anything at all. All, I do is just talk now.
Okay, the day was not completely bad. It was okayish, then I spent alot of my time figuring things about that and nonetheless it was very interesting. I do need more time though, and I will decide then.
Will I be a bad person if I stop caring about everyone?
Okay, how can this be? How and why do I feel happy?
Okay if this stays, then I will let myself be around people.
Okay, loneliness. Come and get me if you can :)
Ouch, I feel the loneliness now. But it's okay, time to face it this time.
Okay, I have a feeling if I do this then loneliness will return.. so let's do it🤩🤩🤩
So, do I become too much for people? I believe that is somewhat true now.
To be honest, it was a good day. I was happy for no reason. But now, it's nighttime and the thoughts. The loneliness is making it's way back. I am scared. Yeah, I admit it. I am scared of loneliness but it's okay. I will face it. I just lose my thinking process when it happens. I don't know what to say to anyone or ask.
