Just a open space
Well so, this is just a space for idk what lol.. I just wanna write some things and it's better to do it here where no is actually told to listen.. so, if anyone wanna read and reply.. you can do that, I don't mind it. I don't know for how long I will even continue this but whatever and for introduction.. I am 20 years old, from India, I got no social life so you are just going to hear a rant about loneliness.
Why can't my mind see that all of this what it is doing isn't helping me, it's just clouding my thinking. I am not able to think properly cause of this. Before then, even in normal conversations I always knew what to say but now I just don't. I was always able to figure out solutions to every problem I have, but now even just thinking about it is causing a headache. Why am I becoming this dull. I don't feel any colour within me now, everything i used to feel, do, think was so colourful even sad emotions. But now, it's all just black and white..where is my colour gone
I feel really frustrated, why can't I figure out what to do. What to make out of this situation and especially life. Why am I not able to enjoy things, please just stop. I don't want to feel this. You are not protecting me
Should I just completely stop everything, ah what should I do
To be honest, I don't even like journalling here but it's just the option I have. There's no other place where I can speak freely.
So, maybe I should develop a complete routine so that I don't have time to sink into all of this. The only hardest time will be before sleeping when I am too tired to do anything but my mind would keep me awake still with all these thoughts.
To be honest, I kinda feel good somehow. Somehow yeah. I don't know why. Well, whatever. I just wanna focus on my hobbies for a while now
I was feeling good actually, pretty much the whole day though now recently I started feeling kinda bad and lonely again but ah well whatever. Will try to spend my time to make myself happy at night.
Ah, loneliness is getting me again.
He who sees too much, ends up not fitting in anywhere.
—Friedrich Nietzsche
Ah what was that. I was so anxious
Did something happen?
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 not really, I was just revisiting my past and that made me feel very bad, upset, frustrated and anxious. But I am okay now
