Just a open space
Well so, this is just a space for idk what lol.. I just wanna write some things and it's better to do it here where no is actually told to listen.. so, if anyone wanna read and reply.. you can do that, I don't mind it. I don't know for how long I will even continue this but whatever and for introduction.. I am 20 years old, from India, I got no social life so you are just going to hear a rant about loneliness.
Heyyy I have to tell u something
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 heyyy, Yeahh what happened
Mera I g pr bhi naam same h bs starting mai bb haii
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 ohh so are you okay with it, like completely fine? What happened though, I mean what changed your decision? And Yeahh Thankk youu for that. Lekin mere paas toh I g hai bhi nhi😭 but I have an account, I can log in that.. this site is completely fine too, it's just I wanted to have assurance that the friendship is just not stuck here if that makes sense
Yeaahhh! Mood swing 😂😭..as yourr wishhh... yeaah that completely makes sensee !
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 how are you feeling today
Okayy...wbuu??
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 what does okayy mean?
Okay means okayyy... Wbuuu?
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 omg, i thought okay meant moon... I am human
That's why I clarified 😭.. ohhh don't lie..u were batman
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 geniuss🥳
Woah, you remember that😭 lekin batman bhi human haii..
Btaoo, kaise ho
Thank youu😭😂
Oh vo human h ? 😭😂 But u are nottt
Bdiaaa...ap btao
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 yess.. oh, haa I am an alien..
Woahh really??
Dekhaa i kneww😭😭
Yeaah whyyyy?
Uk whattttt i m finally goingg on tripp and mere paper postpone ho gyeee!
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 OMG, Wowwwww... Kahaa jarhe ho, yayayya.. congratss, pics bhejna mujhe bahut sari jaha bhi jaoge.. kab jarhee
Mussoorie..Thankk you 😭 hnn hnn sureee..Friday ko subhah
How was your day ?
@aTinyDropley
@bobaa13 woahh, yk mere cousins bhi plan bana rhe hai mussorie ki trip ka😭
It was okay okay. How was yours? Kya kya kiye aaj
Ohh wowwww apko bhi jana chahiye ferrr!!
Whieeee ? Mineee..pehle subha 2 ghante mummy ko mnaya pr vo maane nii fir uske baad mai ttn gyii and literally maine itna Sir khaya naaa apni friend ka vo kehti baai tu nikl jaa ro pdh mummy ke samne 😂😭 vo srsly klp gyi thii.. fir uske baad mai shop pr gyi or maine itna klpaya mummy koo ki vo end mai maan hi gyeee kehte bs tu chup hogaa 😭😂.. bs uske baad pura din vahin thiii abhi hi Ghar aayi..
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 nhiii😭 mja nhi ayega unke sath, alag alag sa hi lgega..
Aunty se pucho na, bina therapy kaise manage krte? Din me 2 baar sar khaya ladki ne😭 bechari dost bhi😭 tum toh scary ho.. waah, maza aata hoga na dukaan par?
Fir toh na jana better h 😭
Mai bhi toh krti hi hun vse hi vo bi kr lete 😭..hnnnn jana tha meko yr...hn grmi mai bhut mza aata 😭..vse meko jana psnd ni h 😭
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 haa, vahi vo plan bna rhe hai lekin time aane pr mai naa bol duga..
Haan, garmi me jyda maza pahado me jaane.. yaad rkhna haan, poora trip ka details aur pics chahiye mujhe.. 😭aisa kyu, jaana kyu nhi psnd?
Waahhh 😭
Vahi tohhh.. abhi toh idher bhi aacha Mausam haii baarishhh ho rhiii meri friend kehti tera mussoorie idher hi bn gya 😭..hnn hnn zarurr...vseee hiii vahan pr bhut logo se interaction Krna pdha h 😭😂
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 waah😭 yaha bhi aaj baarish Hui, thanda Mausam hai ab.. 🤣🤣sahi baat hai uski..
😭Sab relatives jarhee hai kya
Waahhhh😭 pr fir bhiii pahad toh pahad hai na 😭😂
Areee ni niii..apne poocha na shop pr jana kyun ni psnd uska bola😭
Howw are you?
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 haa, pahad pahad.. abhi na ham may me vaha gye the vaishno devi fir vaha se aage ek jagah naatha top.. toh vaha aise tha like sbse upar tha ye mountain😭 glaciers bhi dikh rhe the vaha se door.. aur vaha itni tej vaha thi kyuki itni height aur sbse upar yahi tha, ki literally aise mai ud bhi jata.. vo hota na ninja hattori jaise bandhta hai vo kapda, vaise bandhega na koi vaha toh ud jayega vo😭 seedha khade hona bhi mushkil tha..
Ohoo "apne"😭 tumhe toh formal lgta tha ye... Acha aise, kyuu psnd nhi😭 dry fruits vgera ki shop hai na apki..
Okay okayy as usual.. aap btao, hogyi packing?
Mzaa aaya hogaa kafiiiii...agr kisi ka weight km ho toh vo sachi ud jata 😭...waahhh😭
Tohh kya bolu firrr... Tu ? Tune ? 😭😭Hnnn hnn
Okiee! Abhiii niii...kapde hi lene aayi thi abhii
Or how is your day going ?
@aTinyDroplet
So, I believe alot happened today. First of all, she texted. I was feeling anxious like didn't even realise it much after I felt okay. I am glad I didn't open up. Yeah, I might even have felt better yk but as they say always close the window that hurts you no matter how beautiful the view is. So, yeah I am proud that I didn't let it hurt me. I just pushed her away and yeah I am glad I did. Yk, I was thinking that maybe that is kinda bad thing happened that made me feel so bad and all. But like it's okay, now I atleast know that yeah I am ready to be alone. And I chose to be better you know, like I am just glad about it. And yeah then this mess happened, such a mess that I don't even want to write it. But, it's okayy. Atleast, I know that you only want it in purest form. This is just not something I can do, like I used to think that maybe I will just accept it and like it if it happens but yk like no. I am better than that, now I know it. So yeh, that's all. It was such a mess day but I think I can look to the positive things as well. I am not denying negative things. It's completely fair.
I hope I can make this day better
I guess some things are just meant to be like this. Now, that I realise things I believe I can't even have hope.
Nobody actually wants to d!e yk, if anyone would have wanted it then would have done it right the moment. But they don't. I think there could be many reasons for anyone who feels like this. Some might have wanted something so badly, that nothing else made a point in their life and they didn't get it. Then they lost hope and everything became even more pointless and they just want things to stop, they just want something to make sense, something to live for. But it doesn't happen, then nothing else makes sense except dy!ng. Whereas to some people, maybe they did go through something very terrible and they just aren't able to move on from that. I get it, it becomes a trauma. You imagine yourself living in that moment again and again, and it feels very terrible. Every moment you live feels like heIl. Whereas some might have different reasons. And yeah, it does not happen in just a day, nobody decides that de@th is the answer in a day or just in a moment. But overtime, they just keeps failing even when try their best. Yet they try again, they keeps trying until all of their spark is de@d. And then the moment comes, when dy!ng seems the only answer. That's how, nobody actually wants to d!e, they just want a way to live but it does not happen and they lose hope and yeah then it all happens
Maybe that's what pain does..it convinces us there's nothing left, and our own mind starts working against us, becoming our biggest enemy. I don't know if anything I say will make a difference, but I really hope you realize it's never the only solution
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 yeah, i am good now.. it's just my past experience I needed to write about, I had alot of my past memories come back recently
Glad u r better now..oh okiee
Ouch why do I always get back to step one, no matter how many steps I take I just somehow don't make any progress
I feel like that maybe I was okay with guilt cause I knew I can't hope with that guilt. Now, that I am choosing to forgive I can just move on.
It's okay, I will try again
@bobaa13 vahii😭 vaha ravens bhi the.. vo na glide krre the literally, apne wings flap nhi krte the bas wings kholte the and they were gliding..
Woahh, aaj shopping bhi hogyii.. kyaa kya liyee..
Same same😭aaj gym skip krdiya maine
Oh wowww kinna shi hoga naa dekhnee maii..
Shopping ni mami se hi kapde liye😭..pr sohne haii..
Whieeeee ?
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 haa😭 lekin sar bhari hone lag gya tha vaha, kyuki jyada hi height par tha vo.. kam oxygen vaha..
Yee bhi badhiya hi hai..
😭Aise hi jyada thoughts, aap btao kaise ho?? Ab hogyi packing? Kitne baje nikalna h kal
Ohh jada height pr aisa hi hota h 😭
Hmmm shi hi haiii
Ohhhhh🤔😭kaise thoughts ?...niii abhi shop se aayi..3 bje
And i wanteddd to sayy Thankk youuuu ( don't ask why 😭)
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 maine kaise ho bhi poocha tha😭
😭Aise hi vo bss nihilism jaise thoughts.. 3 bje? Subah subah? Fir toh sone hi nhi wale na tum..seedha car me soge
Yeee kya baat hui..maii nhi khel rha ye game
Idk kya bolu 😂😭
Ohhh... i readd your posts..hnnnn ofcc socha toh yeh hi hai vaise bhi mekoo car mai bhut aachi neend aati 😭
Isme kya gameeee 😭 thank u hi bola haii 😭
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 jo feel kar rhe ho 🫠
Aisaa.. woahh, fir toh acha hai😭mstt neend hogi poori..
Kyuu bola
Kuch bhi ni 😭 isliye hi kuch ni bola
Hmmmm..yessss
Vse hi kyuki meko bolna thaa 😂
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 so numbness it is..
😭Ye kya baat hui...
Kab wapas aaoge? Mujhe daily ke 10 pics chhaiye
Hmm maybe 😭
Yeh hi baat h 😭😂
Sunday koo..itni toh mai click bhi ni krugi 😭😂..abhi toh pehle mummy or meri ldai honi hai kapdo ke krke 😭
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 itni Jldii..😭 mujhe nhi pta ab vo.. minimum 25 pics aane chahiye... 🤣🤣Popcorn lekr ajau dekhne?
Hmm..chl aaeee 😭😂 hnn hnn movie chlni hai idherr koi 😭
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 haaa chalegii na.. mai aunty ko support kruga lekin🤧
What are you afraid of? What is going to get bad again
Kro kroo 😭
Nothing
What are u doing rn ?
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 nhiii, pehle btao
Kuch ni
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 nhiii, btao.. what will be bad again?
Nothing..sorry for talking rudely 😭.. it was just childish stuff
Sorryyy😭
@aTinyDroplet
Andd thank youu for askingg
@bobaa13 isme kya rude tha😭😭aree I am not mad at you... Lekin childish hai toh kya? Don't you see me as a friend to share childish stuff which bothers you?
Idkk..u will get bored one day... And also I don't think i should bcz I will get attached and then u will leave
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 it's okayyy... Yk I am not even going to say that I am not going to leave or you can trust me.. you do that whenever you feels right okayy? I am just going to be so patient with you because I do care and don't ditch my friends.. but please do share with me, I know I can't help.. I really wish I could, but I just want you to share it with me if you can... And Thankk youu for saying that
Okayy.. it's not always necessary that u have to help 😭 and thank youu.. I didn't mean to say all that sorry 😭 idk why I even did
Anyways I m finally goinggg in an hour
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 I am not helping😭 I like to be around you, that's all.. I can't help... Hehe, i am glad you said it...
Okayy, updates dete rehnaa time mile toh.. let me know when you reaches.. and enjoyy the trip😭 when you tell me the stories, I wanna hear that you were happy.. byeee byee, have a safe journeyy
U areee... And i don't need helppp dww !! Mee toooo! U cannnn even u don't know thatt 😭
Okie okieee ...finally hum nikl gyeeeee! Yesss! Thank youuu
What are u doinggg ?
@aTinyDroplet
Baai u remember maine apni friend ko airpods diye theee... Ab vo kisi bhi phone se connect hi ni ho rahee 😭😭
@Bobaa13 😭i am not doing anything though... Yess, never said you need help..
Maii toh 😭apna hi dimaag kha rha tha.. I really wanna get better, I am so tired..
Ohh, I am not sure about airpods.. but I think this should work.. apne phone se forget krdo airpods aur jaise bhi reset hote hai ye vo check krlo kaise hote.. vo kro uske baad connect krke dekho.. hona chahiye..
Ab I will sleep.. btana haan jab pahucho aur pics ka yaad rkhna..
Even talking is enough 😭..
Maybe sb theek hone se pehle bhut dimag khrb hota h 😭 only thoughts and thoughts..
Try krleee dekhugii..thank youu
Gud nighttt..sleep well...okie okieeeee! Bie hieee
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 heyloww.. good morning 🫠
😭Toh kya.. I am doing it for myself..
Kaise ho, how are you feeling
Doing whattt ?
Okayyy
@aTinyDroplet
@bobaa13 😭 ye bhi hai.. bhejoo na pics koi kheechi h toh.. abhi kya kar rhe ho?
Doing what- you said even talking is enough but I am doing it for myself😭 I
Okay okayy