Ughhhhhhhh why I m just lost why is everything just too messed up i don't know what's just wrong with me where is my brain i m toredd tireddddd i have just lost my minddd like reallyyyyyy ughhhhhhhhhhhhh whyyyyyyy all this is happening i m tired of everything
Wasting time and everything.. even when I can study read a novel or do something.. but it's like I m not able to to do anything..my chest hurts idk why...I just want to sleep..I m so tiredd idk why..and uk what i just want to watch or read something romantic comforting bcz in reality I just want someone else too care for me love me... I want validation from someone else...ughh this is not the right way..I knoww i meannn if i would not love myself how can I love someone else or do anything for them bcz I won't even know how to do that... I read somewhere dusro ko utna hi smjh paaoge jitna khud ko smjhoge....I m justtttt tired of this hatred in meee.for everything I wanna just let of out of it nowww ughhhh...I m just done nowww
Dear I'm so sorry for you, and no matter how long I take to be able to answer you, no matter how almost impossible it is for me to talk to you, I will always care about you and love you deeply every single day of my life ❤️🫂
How quiet i have become ?! I feel bad tbh to be quiet even in the loudest of room like whyy...there is something wrong with mee really ... I can feel that reallyy ... When I m too quiet...when I don't know what to do in a moment idk what too dooo i m tiredd of everything...of me really....very tireddd....what should I just doooo....I m sooooo tireddddd nowwwww idk whattt toooo doooo.....ughhh how I wish I could be ok...today too many things happened but idk how to express what I felt in every moment...maybe i should.kusy sleep....bcz for a fact ik i can't handle anything nowadays now... everything is tooo much for me now
Something inside me is hurting.. hurting badly..idk what....it feels badd..weird feeling idk whyy...I really wish i could just talk to him and sort everything..butt i knowww i can't I will ruin everything againnnnnnn....*** everytime I just ruin everything...whyyyy ?!!!! I wantt to get better I tried toooo but in the wmdds I just get moreee worseeeee..and wuin everything thattt i loveeeeeee..
Not able to sleep today it's 1 12 am rn ....I want to talk to someone i wantt comfort...but I have tooo be strong sadlyyy...id there anyone's I can talk to ? Nooo...anyonee ?! Noooooo buttt i m too weall todayyy i want someone...maybe today i won't care about anything and just text someone?
Not able to sleep today it's 1 12 am rn ....I want to talk to someone i wantt comfort...but I have tooo be strong sadlyyy...id there anyone's I can talk to ? Nooo...anyonee ?! Noooooo buttt i m too weall todayyy i want someone...maybe today i won't care about anything and just text someone?
People take advance of u when u appear weak in front of them ?! Maybe yes... So what's the solution? To always be strong in front of others ? But is that really a solutions?
Idk what to type or what I feel.. i m just tired all the time...never have energy to do anything....drained kinda..but whyy ? Idkk..there is a lot to say but don't know how to put everything in words
There is something wrong with me only how j hate myself.... everyone was clicking photos and enjoying they loveee what they see in photos but I hate I hate thattt.. I don't like how I look like....I hate being captured...I mean I want too but I hate that I never look good.. itss not that I m shy that's why i don't like...it's bcz i hate what i see like genuinely hateeee...I hate being ugly..how differently people are treated based on how they look .. if someone is good looking they will get attention even when they don't do anything they r just simply there...ik it's not big issue anyways..but I feel like I m not normal I hate dance like can't even do that alone it feel wierd..how i can't even play with little kids..not that I hate themm butt idk how to talk to them like cutely talk to themm make them laugh.. idk how to do that...I m always quiet..all this feels like there is something wrong with me only...how i can't even hug my friends when I see reels on *** or peoplw in real life hugging there friends or any type of physical touch not in a romantic way like normally i can never do that it feels wierd awkward...not that I don't want to do that but I just can't...ummm i will turn 18 this yr never had a relationship.. i mean it's okay thoo but how does it feels like to be in a relationship ? Like a genuine one..but ik I will riun it like all my friendship soo better i never be in a relationship...I just hate how wierd i m..how I want to talk to people but then I don't know how to show them care love.. it's like I m empty...if someone reels me what's wrong I don't know how to reply so in the end the problem is mee onlyyyy
The winner takes it all and the loser has to fall..it's just a line of a song but I just love it..how efforts don't matter if u r a loser in the end and how u lose yourself in all that mess.. but maybe all that is worth onw day ?
I just hat how bad friend...bad daughter..bad sister I m .. I don't no one.. I hate that i always hurt people who care about me bcz j m wierd and not normal...I should just stay awayyy..and sleep for now...it's all useless
Even after everything is ok..I never feel ok .. I never feel happy even when something good is happening it's likee I don't know how happiness feels like.. I feel depressed.. idk if it's my mind making all this up or what but it just fraustates me that why can't u be happy i want to be ok.. but i m never i m always tired.. exhausted but idk what to do .. I try going out with friends talking with them laughing but it all seems so fake.. like too fake....I m losing my mind it feels like that idk what to do anymore.. ugh what is happening...just stopppp I m done noww. I can't take all this anymore pls stopppp ittt.. am i that bad ? U deserve all this...karma always comes back right...i don't deserve to feel happiness... nothing good
