Why I m so messed up these days ... I don't even try to act normal..ughhh tireddd...I m soo *** tiredd....mai hun hi kyun...I don't want to do anything anymore... nothing is wrong it's like something is just so wrong with me
Why I m so messed up these days ... I don't even try to act normal..ughhh tireddd...I m soo *** tiredd....mai hun hi kyun...I don't want to do anything anymore... nothing is wrong it's like something is just so wrong with me
What should I write how to write or let out everything i felt .. i felt too muchh and nothing at all at same time.. intrusive thoughts aahh things I was imagining damn..it's like I wanna lie in my own journal bcz I can't accept the fact that I think like that...why i can't dance and enjoy.. i really wanna do that I wanna enjoy but i can't even when I really want too..I don't know why I can't bring myself to do it... I know no one was gonna judge me..even they tried so hard but i didn't..I hate how bad I look.. I wanna be beautiful.. I want to like what I see in the mirror.. i m wasting my time by hating myself and being too conscious about everything.. I can enjoy rn but it's like I can't bring myself to....ughh.. I will surely regret wasting this time... Why I m not normal...whyy..I want to be like normal poeple..I can't talk...it's like feeling alone in the loudest of room...it's not like they r not nice ... everyone is just so nice and everything there is some problem with me only ..I m the problem...a mess...how messed up i feel when I sit alone bc I can't bring myself to dance and enjoy when I really wanna to and everyone trying to make me dance...I really wanna be happy ..I want tooo beee normalllll
Dear you are 100% normal, please don't think badly about yourself, because currently you're unable to see how you're immensely wonderful, valuable and worth, you're amazing but you can't see it from your own eyes aright now, it's okay to feel numb, to just feel this strange and not being able to behave like society and the environment around us would like us to, you're not the only one, many do, and it doesn't mean something is wrong with you or anything, it's just how you feel like right now, and it's okay, I doubt anybody but you are judging yourself for that, you should be less harsh to yourself dear because you deserve to be treated only with the nicest of the ways
And also I'm sure you're truly beautiful as well, you're definitely amazing outside just like you are inside
I love you ❤️🫂
It atleastt has been years....thank you so much but the thing is Until I accept myself, any validation from others won’t have any real value… you get what I mean😭 like ireally happy u think like that about me but don't feel like that
I m nottt 😭😭 I loveeee u tooooo thank youuu so muchhhhh 😭🤌🏻
I hope you'll be able to accept it at some point ❤️😭 and you truly are like thattt!!
You're wonderful both inside and outside I'm so sure about thatttt!!!!
Love youuuu ❤️🫂
It's 11 21 pm rn and I feel so alone I really want msg someone and say i am going crazy i m loding my mind I don't know what to do with my life . I m tired of my life..I don't what what's happening with mee.. I miss everyonw.. I missy dad why he died.. if he was here I would be this unstable... I don't know how to feel normally... I want to feel.. but I can't imagine intense situations.. i go numb and it fraustates me .. I want toooo feel ...or either I just feel too much and not able to understand whyy i m feeling too much and what to do ... I m so freaking tired now .. i really wanna tell someone that I m nott ok.. i m really not ok .. I want someone i want to talk to someone.. but if I will tell anyone they r gonna judge me.. and i don't even have the guts to tell anyone bcz who cares .. and they will think i m crazyyy.. or.going crazy but I don't know what to really doo....I m not ok ..not a all..today everything is just too much to handle..
Whyyy I m getting desperate to talk to someone damnnn it's getting too much...when did I become this weak...I need to stop thinking about telling someone really and just sleep..and then study... I haven't been studying anything for a week now and now I should start studying
I m tired.. pr sb toh shi hai fir mai theek kyu ni..mujhe ni smjh aa rha kya kru...mujhe kuch smjh ni aa rha hai yr..life mai pehli baar kisi ko msg krke btane ka mn kr rha ki ur theek ni hun..aisa ni hai log ni haii.. pr aisa koi ni jisse itna real ho ke baat krlu
Kya ho rha hai smjh hi ni aa rhaa hai bs or ni ho rha haii bs ho gyi haiii should.j just give up ? I m really tireddd.... Really really tired ..idk what to do..I just wanna stop my mind ...idk what's happening with me.. I can't handle anything anymore.. idk what to do.
I think too much about everything then nothing affects me i m numb or it affects me too much idk what to do.wothwr i care too.muvh or nothing at all either I was just crazy shout and let it all.out or i just laugh too much.. i m tired of thisss i wanna tell someone all this i don't want to be alone .. but I don't wanna be a burden like everybody has their own problems I don't wanna be one more again... I need tooo handle all this againnnnn and I can I willl .. or i have tooo.. talking is not an option.. i m not like normal poeple.... I don't have real friendships they all r fake ..I know that.. not fake like there are no fights they don't know the real me ... They habw only seen my good side or have seen bad one too but not with themm they don't know howw crazy i m goinggg ... Howww I m nott ok really...how fake i m these daysss... I m really done...I wanna have one real friend irl they just pure friendship from both sides ... Ugh highest population still can't find a single person.. how bad I m
Grapesss 😭 I'm so sad to see you this way 😭😭
Are u still sure about thatt ? I m the worst person believe meee..thoo thank youuu so muchhh I just don't have energy tooo reply properly 😭thoooo thank you so much for always being thereeeee 🥹🤎
I'll be sure about it forever, and well I'm sorry but I don't believe you on thatttt, you're awesome I swear
Again an another day....I m tired of acting normal laughing tbh...I know all that is fake...I never feel ok.. yesterday I just opened up too much telling how i can't cry even on someone's death.. like it was Insane why i told that I should have kept my mouth shut....that's not howww normal people behave.... something about me is just not right....I can never love someone no matter what.. I don't know how to....how to make a person feel seen loved cared ? Idk...idk anything.. i m not normal that's the point.. i m tired of acting noww.. i don't wanna act anymore
T/w
So today there was a seminar in our school regarding drugs.. addictions and everything.. and the reason people become drug addict were manuplation.. were just trying for fun..thenn was lonileness....moag the the time the main reason is our company...or sometimes the reason is people feel alone...
Anyways...I don't know everyone was saying they were just going to cry everything was so emotional and all but i didn't feel anything at all it was not depressing for me idk whyyy.. maybe bcz I m not normal idk
Andd i realised something if someone even talks to me normally like treat me.likw.a normal person and just show a little interest I would think about that person all the time it's like I would just think tooo much about just a little conversation...but when it will be start getting closer and closer I will go away....I want to be close with people but not much like only till surface level.. idk bcz I m afraid but this is not right..I can't always do that
