WANT TO GIVE MY SELF A FAIR CHANCE

I am suffering with many chronic health issues. Been a while. I get better sometimes and then drop to level zero Again. My main health issue right now is I am almost 15 kilo overweight and my relationship with food. 

I am a emotional eater. I eat my emotion to survive. I am a single women in her late thirties.  Been single most of the time of my life and it was hard. So I used food as my painkiller. And now, I am really tired of Being my this self. 

Its not like I never tried to change my self. But always tried it in a wrong way and mostly to impress others. 

But now I really wanna do it for my self. And I dont wanna rush it.

I wanna give my self 3 month of consistency in clean eating. After that i wanna start strength training. 

Good plan right? But problem is I am a very impatient person. And I give up easily. I am too weak in emotion management. I get triggered in every little disappointments and start eating junks.  

But this time I dont wanna fail. I wanna be Patient. 

October was a rollercoaster ride... 

But still some days i have got here. And then November & December. 

I hope to win. 

I feel If I can fix my health in a really healthy manner I can handle other hardships of my life perfectly as well. 

So, Dear Self...  I love you, I am with you... Go for it... Give it your best🔥