Am I Asexual?

Hi!

I've been thinking for some time now I might be asexual? Idk

While growing up I saw my friends having those child-like relationships, kissing each other and all of that but I was the only one who never had any interest, so I never had a boyfriend or kissed someone. At the time I always thought maybe I was too young and just haven't found yet interest in those things. I fell in love at 12 and the boy liked me back, but I was afraid he would want to kiss me and get close right away if I accepted dating him so I never gave him an answer and things ended just like that

Then I had my first boyfriend at 14(a lot because of pressure from our friends that we should date)He actually went really slowly, kissing only my face at first until he got to my mouth and I felt more comfortable like that, but I never felt anything while kissing him, even when we made out. Once he fingered me but I felt nothing, I just went with the flow because I thought that's what should do. We never did more than that and eventually broke up. Not long after that I felt attracted to someone for the first time but it stopped a while after and nothing ever happened anyway

Now I'm 21 and since then I haven't felt any need to be with someone that way. It's not like I don't like the idea of sex, I enjoy reading erotica, but in real life I just don't feel attracted to anyone and can't see myself doing that. Also, I enjoy reading erotica but I have no interest in watching porn(I never watched tbh)

Help!