Demisexual rant i think
Semi recently, I've been coming out to everybody as Demisexual, and its been tough and i haven't gotten the best reactions. But the one consistency is no one knows what it is. And its been slowly eating away at me. And I think that sucks.
partially because of this, I've felt insanely alone and no one gets it. Like everybody else can love better than me, and i'm broken. Why cant anybody like me for who I am? Why cant anybody see past my body as I do them? I feel like a mino in a sea of sharks. And I feel like there's not a single person alive that understands loving for the sake of loving, and i hate it. I hate me, or at least my sexuality. I wish there were people who cared, and not just ignore me. But most of all, I wish somebody could relate.
So *** the point is, don't shove people under the bus, its lonely there.
@Rowan64 I think I know how you feel, and I appreciate you pointing out not to put others down. I am Demiromantic, and I am still struggling with whether or not to tell my friends, for fear that they might see me differently, even though I know they probably won’t. It’s still hard, but know that you are not alone, even when it seems like you are.
@amusingPlum9707 thank you so much, i honestly never expected anyone here to relate at all! I'm always so happy when i find people even a little like me, thank you
@Rowan64
I didn't know there was a name for it, but I'm at least a bit on that spectrum, but I also feel it's inevitable that unless you have that trait, relationships rarely survive long-term. Infatuation and physical attraction lasts only so long, then something deeper must manifest, or romance wanes.
A true heart to heart connection is what sustains my 33 year relationship with my spouse, and reflecting on it still elicits passion.
I guess that's why I never found casual sex to be of interest.
@Rowan64 I’m really sorry that you feel this way. I don’t know A lot about Demisexuality but I hope that you know there people out there who identify as the same sexuality as you and who are probably struggling with the same issues as you do, So don’t feel like your alone.
