Don’t truly know how I feel

Hey there! So for years I've had gender

dysmorphia, questioning if I really

wanted the transition or if it may just be

a sexual fantasy of mine. Sexually it's

hard for me to not be aroused if I don't

think of myself as the girl in the situation.

I've managed to bury it for years until

recently where it's hit stronger. Now i

just imagine me going through therapy

and medical help to become the girl I've

thought of. I've imagined my new body

and clothes, but I can't tell if this is a real

desire or if it's just my sexual fantasy

kicking in. I'm just confused