Feeling a bit overwhelmed here
Hello everybody, I am a transfem I think (it's a complex situation but mostly doubts my family has dug deeply into my brain because of transohobic ignorance) still 17 soon to be 18 and I have this weird problem. I really wanna be a girl, like a lot, but I don't think I can ever be the girl I want to be, I guess I'm scared of transitioning? That I will never look good? And it always feels like time is slipping away, like every second I spent being afraid or unsure is robbing my future self of possible happy time as a girl. I genuinely don't know how to deal with these feelings or with my family and I would like to hear your story if you found yourself in a similiar situation.
@ThisPhatGirl
Hi! I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with this. I know it must be difficult to understand how you're feeling sometimes. I have never experienced this personally, but have you considered possibly talking to a therapist? They might be able to help you express your feelings and understand them a little more clearly. I know it must be scary feeling this way, but you won't feel this way forever! I hope you are able to figure out your feelings soon! Good luck❤️
Hi, sorry for the late answer but the app didn't notify me of your response. Thank you for the kind words, yes I do go to therapy, it was really hard to do though, had to literally come out to my mom about being trans to convince her to send me to one and even then she didn't really wanna do it. Very recently we have talked about this, not exactly all of the feelings but mainly the problems with my mother and really feeling I want to be a girl. She told me that (since I'm 17) she will talk to my mother about this and about sending me to a more specialized therapist in these sort of gender issues. She said that I am definitely trans by some aspects and not by others, I don't really know what to do of this and I am waiting for the new therapist. My mother is still trying to convince me "I am definitely not trans ever evere"™️
@ThisPhatGirl I'm really proud of you for taking the initiative to tell your mom everything to go to therapy. You are a great advocate for yourself and that's really incredible for someone your age. I hope that the new therapist will be more helpful and you are able to understand your thoughts a little more clearly. Thinking of you!❤️