Friends?

Hey guys,

I’m not sure how to begin this conversation, and I apologize if I sound repetitive. Growing up with my family was challenging in general, and things became even more tense when I came out. My father wanted me to pursue a career in football or wrestling, but in the end, I became an over-pleaser, sacrificing my own well-being to please others. I felt like I was disposable as long as people were happy, and this mindset stuck with me for a long time.

Thankfully, with therapy and the support of my mother, who has been my only great resource, I’ve grown into a more self-aware and overall happier person. However, my father’s return to my life due to my brother’s illness has reopened some wounds I thought were healed. I realized that outside my close circle, I have no friends or anyone to rely on. I lost many friends because I disappeared for a while.

Despite these challenges, I’m genuinely happier with myself now. I feel more whole and complete than I have in my entire life. I wanted to reach out to see if there are any other people out there who are looking for someone to talk to. If you ever need someone to vent to, I’m here for you. I understand how important it is to be heard, and I want to be a supportive presence for anyone who needs it.

If those identifiers are significant to you, please know that I’m a gay man.