dysphoria is a meanie :/
i've only discovered my gender recently and that just kinda opened the flood gates to absolutely hating my body. it doesn't help that i'm going through puberty and i'm getting the crappiest facial hair and makes me look like a total pedo in my massive hoodies and sweatpants so i can hide my body from myself. I would tell my parents but my stepdad would probably literally kill me and my mom wouldn't even care. she'd either think it's some phase or not help me get through it at all. she never even acknowledges like... any of my problems. that's part of the reason I'm here lol. girl clothes make me happy but I can't get my hands on them because my parents monitor every purchase on my card and even if they didn't see what it was they snoop through all my packages. and I don't have any stores within walking distance so cash is out of the question. So, dysphoria hoodies it is for now. Anyway, dumb rant over. dysphoria is mean.
@hemlocksaretasty dysphoria hoodies r so real omg im sorry about your situation though :(
I'm so so sorry that you are experiencing this . I also know how dysphoria hurts so at least you are not alone with those feelings: )
@hemlocksaretasty
hi, it sounds like we're close in age and in similar boats... i recently re-came out to some close friends as genderfluid. idk if anything i say might help but i hope it does. if you have any supportive friends or family members you could ask to possibly borrow some makeup, (it sounds like youre mtf but i could be wrong, if so im sorry :') lol) maybe just wear colorful bracelets (personally i love bracelets), other accessories, if you can painting your nails might make you feel better. just find good friends who support you. personally i rely on my girlfriend and im extremely grateful for her because she has been nothing but supportive this whole time. things will get better im sure but right now just focus on the things you CAN do that will make you feel good about yourself. dont neglect yourself either... but if you ever need someone to talk to or anything i'd listen :) hope things get better for you.