gender confusion
I am a male by birth, and honestly, I am comfortable with my body, or so I think. However, when I was extremely young, around 8 or 9 years old, I tried on my mom’s clothes. This habit continued, and I would occasionally do it, which felt really good. Sometimes, I have a strong urge to be a female, but other times, I am comfortable with what I am. It’s very confusing.
@manu2605
Gender exists on an infinitely variable continuum, so in a world where only certain ideas about gender are acknowledged, I'd be willing to bet that most of us either are a bit confused, or we have parts of our identity suppressed.
So, that you have been willing to acknowledge this confusion and reach out to others, is very much to your credit.
Regardless of your urges, and desires to dress differently sometimes, there is no reason for you not to be comfortable with yourself. I think in a lot of cases, it comes down to becoming comfortable with some degree of ongoing confusion. I have questions about myself which I seriously doubt will ever get answered. I also think those unanswered questions have helped me to become more empathetic and compassionate.
A worthwhile question is, "who am I in this moment?" Another is, "what am I feeling right year, right now?"
Confusion is less confusing if one is able to accept guidance from the heart. It's entirely possible that the heart may communicate, "I need to experience what it's like to dress in female clothes."
@manu2605 I've always felt a strong desire to be female and feminine. I've been learning to embrace each side of myself. It's a long, painful, yet also rewarding journey.