Barely Content
There literally is so much to write, but basically in a nut shell I have no idea who I am or what I want anymore. I've struggled with anxiety and depression so much of my life it feels like that's my identity and it effects my relationships and I think may be responsible for the unhealthy relationship I have with food and sex. I think I have equated my value as a person to being accepted and searching for that validation in many unhealthy ways. I keep saying it could be worse, I could be in 2008 where I attempted suicide, but this place isn't a whole lot better either. I don't have suicidal thoughts but I'm still not happy, I'm barely content if I'm being completely honest.
@RyGuyRy I understand that this has been a big struggle for you. You have battled a lot of anxiety and depression. You have looked for ways to be validated in the past and you acquired an unhealthy relationship with food and sex. You aren't content at this point in your life but you are still seeing the things are better than they were in 2008.
