Bi awakening
New member here, im a 32 year old man who has questioned my sexuality since i was in my teens. I live in a really unfriendly place for lgbtq people so i never had support or anyone to discuss what i was feeling. Ive always felt awkward with women in general, i never had a girlfriend until i was 27 and i kind of forced myself into a long term relationship with her and now im married, but i just cant shake these feelings that im not really with my true soul mate. I find myself thinking about men when im with her and ive even had secret conversations with another man who i am extremely attracted to. Ive never cheated because i dont believe in it but i really dont know what to do. Just curious if anyone else had experienced this or just general advice. Thanks
@curiouswv
hi there! thank you so much for sharing this with us <3
Hello, guess, I understand you, and it’s so sad. I also live in an intolerant place and it’s extremely hard not to feel support from the society and the government. I wanna wish to be happy, not to imitate it. Do hope you find a way out of this situation.
Wow. It brought me so much comfort reading this. Because I too am a 32 year old man who has questioned his sexuality since he was a teenager. However, I got married to a woman when I was 22. I’m not sure if I’m actually attracted to women or if I have just forced myself due to my upbringing.
Now I can’t control the feelings of attraction at all. All I can think about are men. In ways I feel a lot of shame and guilt…but I really enjoy thinking about men, so 💁♂️. I’ve been too nervous to actually start chatting with guys or anything like that, I don’t really even know a good discrete way to go about it.
It’s a lot to process. Because I really do love and care for my wife. She absolutely is my best friend. The last thing I’d want to do is hurt her. But right now I feel like by not being able to explore my sexuality, I am hurting myself.
Hi there.
I’m sorry that you live in an unfriendly place!
I was born and raised in the south so it wasn’t something that was accepted that much either.
However, I think talking with your wife and expressing how you feel could make you feel better. ❤️
First of all, congratulations on taking an honest assessment of where you are with yourself. This person you have been secretly talking to, what input have they given you so far? Do you see it as purely a physical attraction or is there an emotional attraction to them, as well?
Same boat as you man. DM me
