I need guidance I suppose or help.

I apologize if I say something wrong or is a trigger for someone I don't mean to make it that. So I've always been attracted to woman as a young man. Naturally been drawn to them and loved their bodies. But one day I saw a movie where the guy had a wife but was gay and I thought could that be me? So I got passed it, have a gf now and I do love her. I feel connected when we have sex. Now to the pet I'm confused about. I like porn a lot. I didn't lose my virginity till 23 so I always watch porn. Well I went from straight, a few other things I'm not proud of to them gay, for a short time. Well then I just went back to woman and then went to trans. Well I've grown up and said let's face it. The idea of a new porn like gay, or something else excites me. But watching it does nothing. I like the rush porn gives me. But I get bored of it. I see handsome guys but I don't know what to do with them? Like am I suppressing these feelings down. Look people are people if I fall in love with a guy if my gf and I broke up cool. I've never had those feelings for any guy. Don't find the male figure attractive. Like something about woman's bodies "click". But the idea of dating a man doesn't feel like a pleasing fantasy. Then the idea of of a new sex experience gets me excited then I get bored of the idea like oh now that I've actually thought of it, it seems boring. This might not at all make sense so message me if you want me to expand more. I'm so sorry.