Just needing some input; thank you.
So, hi. I'm Jasper. I live in a small rural town and a middle child. I'm trans, ftm, and been out to my family for a while now. They often (maybe unintentionally) will make transphobic (anything negative about lgbt really) statements or jokes, and I don't have the confidence to sa yh anything. When someone gets confused with my pronouns (simply he or they) they make jokes about me being an "it". I brush it off but it really hurts. They still refer to me as their daughter and out me. When I first asked asked for help they said
"We're not signing anything until you're 18. And if ypu stick with it maybe you can start at 16."
I did clarify I didn't want surgery until im 19 (fully grown) but I did want to start hormones before it was too late. I'm now 15 and feel lonely, unheard and invisible to my family...
In conclusion I would just like some help.
Apologies for rambling, just thought some background may be helpful.
Apologies for misspellings, i type too quickly sometimes.
@Jasper06
Hi Jasper, thanks for sharing your story. I didn't find it rambling in the least. I can only imagine how difficult it must be in your position, wanting to start the changes that you know you need/want, but being constrained by so many external factors outside your control. I know it's often disheartening.
I want you to know that someone in another region of the planet is rooting for you and cheering you on as you make your way in this big, wide world.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Jasper. Sometimes when we are in this position of little or no control, any small victory we can claim can be just enough fuel to keep us going. For example, declaring your preferred pronouns and consistently correcting or reminding others, even if they dismiss or make fun. I know that always having to be "on" or guarded, or always having to be in the educator role, is exhausting and feels like a burden most times.
Wishing you well as you make your way forward!
