closeted crush and loneliness
I have a crush on my friend but she has a girlfriend and i’m not out yet. It’s just so painful because I want to be more but circumstances won’t allow that. I don’t know how to move on, she’s my first crush and I feel so alone not being able to tell anyone that I like her. how do I get over someone that was never mine?
So it's not just a crush but you have romantic feelings for him. Also do you hang out with her because of those feelings or are you genuinely interested in the friendship. I know it's get really difficult and lonely but try and think about these questions.
I hang out with her because I like her as a person and she makes me happy. it’s a mix of romantic and platonic feelings because I like her as a person and she is my best friend but I am attracted to her and want to be closer. we are always friendly and the romantic feelings are not completely distracting but when she makes physical contact with me and casually/jokingly says she loves me I can’t take it. it’s difficult because I have never liked anyone this much but she has a girlfriend so I won’t cross any boundaries.