Lesbian Sexuality
I'm 29 years old. Recently, I've been questioning my sexuality since I've been having these thoughts about not wanting to have sex with a man or be married to a guy (The first thought that popped in my head was scared when I thought about being married to a man). When I think about women, I have a different feeling (a nice feeling) and I want to have sex with a woman and be married too. I look at lesbian couples on online (they are holding hands, getting married, etc...) and I want that life.
I've been thinking about high school lately and I was wondering if these were signs that I was a lesbian (and I suppressed the feelings):
Did I like to see the girls basketball team practice because I was attracted to them or I didn't want to do P.E.
Thinking about two of my female classmates and I wonder if I had crushes on them?
@HorizonJurassic
When I first began wondering about myself, I did a lot of similar looking back and wondering whether crushes had been the reason for various choices/friendships. In most cases I decided it has been connected. A friend once quoted some definition of attraction as whatever most distracts you. Since I wasn't sure if women were appealing simply because they weren't men, I took that to heart. Who distracted me the most? Who did I keep looking at or thinking of? It was interesting and gave me confidence in my orientation. 🌈
