I was In a relationship about 9 years ago. It was a toxic one. She wouldn't let me do anything on her absence. I wasnt allowed to make friends, take phone calls or be myself. She was so over protective. She literally chased everyone away from me, people were scared of speaking to me. I saw it as love. But things started to change, she met other girls and suddenly wanted me to start making friends, but it wasnt going to be easy. She left me and followed her new girl. I had to start rebuilding. In 2017, I met another gal, after 3 years of my last breakup. She had similar traits with my ex and at the same time was a flirt. She was protective and didnt want me to date any guy or gal, she brought enemity between my best friend and I. I didnt want my happened in.my past relationship so I tried to convince her to let me be friends with other, but she insisted she would know all my friends and be friends with them. She was over protective too just like my ex. Then one day I invited her to my place. One of the days I went to work and she went grocery shopping, she met a gal. The exchanges numbers. She came home and told me, I told her to delete the numbe . I had flashbacks and horrors from past relationship. I felt like a repeat from the past was about to happen. She wont delete the number she promised it was just a casual friend and nothing was ever going to happen. She was also threatened by a guy I was friends with. I tried to make her friends with the guy but she wont agree.
I broke up with the guy, then she went back to her base cos we are in a LDR relationship. When she went back she was still in touch with the girl , she invited her to her place and slept with her. She cheated!! . To worsen it she was seeing a guy behing my back, Now they are engaged and are about to get married. As a result of her cheating we have been on and off in the relationship..she wants me back, but wants me to accept her fiance and the other girl.she wants me to be a part of her life and her wedding. She claims she loves me and that I mean the world to her but she wpnt breakup with the other gal because she doesn't want to hurt her. I can't seem to let go of her, I find myself going back to her. She feels remorse and wants me back, saying she thought i was still seeing the boy in her absence so she cheated. But am broken, and am dealing with trust issues right now, i cant trust her anymore. Pls guys help. Since we got bk again recently, I started having nightmares again,I barely sleep. I want to genuinely heal from the trauma and humiliation from my previous relationship and give the one am with a second chance. Even though the gal am with had cheated too. But I feel my immediate relationship contributed. Now am such an extreme jealous lover. At the same time I feel like breaking up with her and moving on is best for me. Bt I cant seem to get over her. Your Advice pls?