dealing with comphet

so, hey, i guess i'm a lesbian. i've just realised it but i still have some trouble figuring out some stuff. i mean, when i watch erotic videos i have a peculiar mechanism of making it less heterossexual by excluding women of it. does this make any sense? i feel disgusted because no women could possibly feel aroused by that so i just cut them out and focous on the men. does anyone else here do this?