Sexuality
Hey there, good evening, everyone. I've been thinking a lot, like a LOT whether I'm pansexual, bisexual, or omnisexual. I really can't tell since it's really confusing me.
I used to be a lesbian, but now I don't think I'm a lesbian since I just met an online dude on *** who caught my interest, but one day he asked me what my gender identity and I was like, "I'm genderfluid, and I go by they/any." He said he's the same, except I don't know if he's genderfluid, but he goes by any pronouns. He has an OC that represents him, and the OC is a girl version of him, which I don't really mind, but he acts pretty zesty and girlish towards me, and again, I don't see a problem with it.
Another thing is that I used to have a girlfriend before my mental health went down, which also led to me breaking up with her, although we shared a lot of memories and our relationship only lasted around 4 or 5 months. I don't really remember, but the only thing I remember was her last message was being kind and careful towards me while I was the one who kept ghosting her for WEEKS until our relationship was GONE. (Which I'll never experience this kind of feeling again.)
There are some people online. Whenever I'm scrolling through ***, I would think the person in the video is pretty even if they're trans or cis. Something tells me that I don't really care what gender the person is, but more importantly, is their beautiful soul and personality.
I had so many feelings in the past. I used to have a crush on any gender when I was a kid. The first crush I've ever developed was on a boy, then a girl, and then a random trans person that I don't even remember.
I'm sorry if they don't make sense, but thank you if you read all of them.
Hey there,
It's great that you stay open to your sexuality evolving. I say this because you recognize yourself that you "used to be" a lesbian, and that you are now questioning this a bit. You sound like you are omnisexual to me, since the gender of the person doesn't really seem to matter in the way you feel attracted to them or not.
That being said, if the confusion you feel burdens you, remember that you don't have to be 100% correct when identifying with a sexual orientation. In fact, you don't even have to tick any of this boxes at all.. these labels came forward to help people feel like they belonged, they weren't meant to be cages ! And the reality is much more complex.
Finally, try to take this feeling as an experience that your sexuality is not set in stone. It may continue to evolve over time, and that will be Ok. I cannot count how many friends I have who "used" to be whatever they identified with in the first place :)
It is fairly common to feel a bit confused as you age and meet different people. Don't let it get to your head too much !