Current thoughts

I don’t know what actually is getting me in this mood, but all what i do know is that after all this, or despite finding the most one who can listen and understand me, he still doesn’t reach the phase i want to be in, so it seems i need a therapist, or only someone qualified enough to listen and make me feel he understands, on the other hand, if i talked with my parents about it, they will refuse, but what i do believe in, is that all what i passed through needs a therapist to guide and listen to me.... today’s thoughts are nothing but my mood is just to stay silent and away from people , and do little things that would get me out of the mood