How do I move forward?

Hello, I'm at a very uncertain stage of life. Everything seems to be falling apart and getting worse by the day. This is starting to trigger anxiety attacks at an unhealthy level and I'm finding myself more confused and angry at myself for staying in this situation and subjecting the ones I love to all of this. . I want so badly to be happy. I want to move forward but I don't know how. In the heat of it all I find myself staring I to space with a blank mind or crying about things I have no control over and as hard as I try I can't drag myself from these feelings. At this point , any advice is good advice. Got any?