321 thoughts

Hello everyone. i’m new to this whole supports group thing so please just bear with me! i’m not sure if im supposed to talk as if im looking for advice or anything but i just wanna get this off my chest..

Every day i have a specific thought that causes my anxiety to just spike and then disappears until the next time it just wants to haunt me.

I call it the 321 thought because sometimes, randomly i’ll get a thought that says ‘___ will happen in 3-2-1,’ or ‘if you don’t do this, ___ will happen to ____ in 3-2-1.’

my problem is, is that often the tasks are impossible to do in three seconds, so i just have to suffer the anxiety spike until the countdown stops. 

Sometimes, it happens at the daycare where i work. ‘if you don’t put the kid down your dog will explode at home in 3-2-1.’ but i can’t just drop someone’s kid.

its disturbing. and it’s been my longest OCD related issue.