Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @azurePond
I’m struggling…
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hey..Kiara..I am here... What happened?
Multiple people keep telling me to rest, because I’m so burnt out… My hand has been hurting a ton lately. But I’m so antsy… I need to be helping people, drawing, giving out tracts, serving… But idk how. I don’t want to be idle. I want to keep loving people! :(
@jesusredeemedme2425 Ok Kiara..take a deeeep breath. I understand what you say...to an extent. Rest feels overwhelming for you. So you cannot sit idle. But you are burnt out and need rest. So we need to find a middle ground where u can rest but also do something that doesnt aggravate your wrists..Is that what you need now?
Yeah
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hey Kiara...How are you feeling now?
Sleepy. I came home and crashed. Only moved like twice in an hour and a half lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 That is good, right? You had some rest
I just, idk what to do besides reading and movies….
@jesusredeemedme2425 oh ok reading and watching movies are good. Doo you feel like you should be doing "productive tasks" or like...reply to the posts here on 7cups? Are those thoughts weighing on you?
I’ve been unsubscribing to most posts that pop up. For my sanity’s sake.
I just know I’ll get bored just doing these 2 things yk
@jesusredeemedme2425 What is bothering you right now... The resting part or something else?
Waiting for the boredom to strike.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Now you are not bored right? But you are anticipating boredom. You have a negative relationship with rest maybe that is why it is bothering you. Do you ever feel like you do not deserve rest or rest is bad?
Yeah, I’m so used to working I guess
@jesusredeemedme2425 That is why I guess. But rest is good, Kiara. Rest is necessary. Boredom is good.
I guess boredom is a good thing… I heard a birdie fly onto the bush outside my window just now, and I just watched him for awhile. Then he flew to the roof, and I know he’s still there because I can still hear him calling <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 What about some challenging things like learning a new language or learning something new via Y0utube or voice journaling or voice typing
I was thinking about that. Like TED talks or something
@jesusredeemedme2425 Yes, watch videos but different types..so you will not get bored
Like what?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hey Kiara, I just saw your post about the breakdown. I am sorry that I was not online back then... So here is my reply to it. Once again, apologies for the belated response, sis
You’re not broken. You’re tired. You're overused, over expected, under rested. You’ve been performing a self—a version of Kiara so polished and reliable that even you can’t breathe around her anymore. And that’s not your fault. You were trained probably by life and people and patterns you didn’t choose, to be that Kiara. The giver. The one with her *** together. The one people lean on but never quite hold in return.
And now your body is calling for you. Loudly. In carpal tunnel and burnout and brain fog and grief.
And I know that feels terrifying. Because the moment you stop giving, you’re not sure who you are. Because the world taught you that your worth lives in what you offer others. Not in who you are when you’re doing nothing. But Kiara, my god, you are still real even when you are not producing. You are still lovable when you are not performing. You are still whole, even now, especially now—aching, exhausted, and reaching out. We all love you or who you are.
You ask: if not giving, if not art, if not helping, then what?
Then: being.
Then: resting without guilt.
Then: finding the quiet you were denied.
Then: small, weird joys. Music you don’t “need” but like. Old cartoons. Rain sounds. Gentle nonsense. Watching clouds, youtube videos, ghibli movies. memes
You are allowed to mourn the loss of joy. You are allowed to question who you are. And you are allowed to do nothing for a while. Nothing but exist. It’s okay. The world won’t fall apart. And if it does, it wasn’t yours to carry alone in the first place.
Please, please don’t mistake exhaustion for emptiness. Your soul is still in there, Kiara. Tired, yes. But not gone.
I'm here. I see you. And you don’t have to be perfect for me to stay. you dont have to perform for any of us in 7cups to stay. We all love you. I love you. *hugs *
I feel useless when I’m not serving.
Have you ever heard “Surface Pressure”?
@jesusredeemedme2425 I hear you....that feeling of only being valuable when you're useful… it carves into you over time, doesn’t it? Like your worth is measured in output... in how much you carry, not in who you are when you just exist.
But you’re not useless, Kiara. Not even close. You’re human. And being loved, worthy, real — none of that depends on how much you serve others. You’re allowed to rest. To be. And still be deeply, deeply valuable.
Surface Pressure..as in the song..encanto?
Exactly.
Yeah that one lol. Ever paid attention to the lyrics?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Yes.. do you mean the part where she sings- Under the surface... I'm pretty sure I'm worthless if I can't be of service?.. oh Kiara 🥹
Exactly.
And… the rest of the song. It’s me.
@jesusredeemedme2425 God, I wish I had superpowers so I could just lift that pain right out of you 🥹
I don’t know what else to say… I just hate that you're hurting.
Awww <3
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I made this with AI for you <3... I know this cannot take your pain away..But Kiara, you are so much loved..you are s much loved by me, by everyone in 7cups, by God...you are loved<3
I love this!!! It’s gorgeous and peaceful and calming <3 Thank you, sis <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I’m so glad you love this Kiara. You carry the same energy... even when you’re resting. Your actions are beautiful and kind, and the way you see the good in others is absolutely gorgeous. You exude peace.
But I also know there are storms beneath the surface—things you see as dark or negative. Still... just like in the picture, it’s the imperfections and the shadows that create contrast… and contrast brings clarity.
Even in darkness, even in the middle of your “breakdowns” even while resting—the light you give off is divine. You are truly loved for every part of you. You are so, so amazing, sis <3
Thank you <3 That light is Jesus shining through me <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hold onto that light. You have got this, Kiara. You shall overcome <3
I hope so <3
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Aslan!
@jesusredeemedme2425 Yass !!
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This one is from Pinterest
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@jesusredeemedme2425 Can I suggest you a song?- Stand by you by Rachel Platten .. listen to it<3
What’s my next move? I did some hygiene self care and I was thinking about creating a playlist, since mine disappeared once I deleted a music app. What else? <3
What’s my next move? I did some hygiene self care and I was thinking about creating a playlist, since mine disappeared once I deleted a music app. What else? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Playlists are such a good idea — they can feel like little emotional sanctuaries. Have you ever made one for your favorite book or character? I do that sometimes… songs that feel like them or capture their mood or their story or even what they’d listen to.
Never thought about that.
Idk what to add to mine. I want mostly Christian.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Oh okay.. You listen to Christian songs..that's great ..now make a playlist (maybe in a way that each songs flows to the next easily)
Are you a Christian? I can’t remember lol
Was that a yes XD
What’s my next move? I did some hygiene self care and I was thinking about creating a playlist, since mine disappeared once I deleted a music app. What else? <3
Sorry that posted 3 times, the app glitched XD
Hey Kiara, I will be taking a break..again...will be back soon (family stuff..again).... I am sending you all the love and prayers...Take care!
You guys ok? <3
Thank you! Love you sis <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Yeah we're ok.. Love you too sis<3
How are you? How's your hand?
Does anybody hear her?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hear whom?
Me.
@jesusredeemedme2425
Is this a trick question—
or are you feeling unheard, unseen?
Because if that’s the case... you're wrong.
We hear you. We see you. We love you.
If this is about the posts… I haven’t been active on 7 Cups lately. I’ve been dealing with a few things—nothing dramatic... just the usual life stuff. Mostly though..it is my insomnia and it’s catching up with me. So if my silence felt like abandonment, I’m really sorry. That was never my intention.
Or… is this about faith? About God?
Because Kiara, He hears you.
Always. Just—hold on.
Or is this about something else?
The second one.
It’s not about you… I know you’re busy <3
Are you ok? <3
It’s about… screaming into the void and no one knowing it.
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Okay.... First of all — I’m not busy, Kiara.
I’m just... angry. At everything. And when I get like this, I sort of cra.wl back into my shell.
Not because I want to disa.ppear but because I know I can hu,rt people when I’m angry.
Am I okay? I don’t know.
It happens at least once a month — so yeah, I’ll survive. I always do. I’ll be okay. Eventually.
And oof — screaming into the void? Yeah. I get that.
I once wrote a poem on 7 Cups — I can’t remember the title but I think it was Cassandra.
You know, the ancient Greek prophet who foresaw the fall of Troy but no one believed her. They called her mad. The poem was about that feeling — shouting, grieving, warning — into this endless digital abyss.
Like.... “I’m not okay. The world is burning. Everything’s getting worse.” And still... just static. Just noise. No echo back.
I think about that sometimes — how we all end up like Cassandra. Screaming into the void, hoping someone, somewhere, might hear us.
But then I remember the story of the loneliest whale — the one that sings at 52 hertz. No other whale sings at that frequency. Scientists thought it was calling into the ocean for years, unheard, unanswered.
But here’s the thing.... people did hear. Maybe not other whales — but humans tuned in. Listened. Cared. They even tracked it, followed its song, wrote stories and made documentaries about it. And that makes me think... maybe the void isn’t so empty after all.
Maybe someone is listening. Maybe the reply isn’t in the same frequency — maybe it’s softer, slower, shorter — but it’s still a reply.
7 Cups is proof of that, isn’t it?
We scream into the void and somehow, we get to hold virtual hands with strangers who choose to listen...... We're doing it right now — you and I.
So maybe the screaming isn’t so useless after all.
Maybe it’s the start of something — even if it’s quiet. Even if it’s slow.
It’s still connection.
And that’s something.
Love you sis<3
I had a panic attack tonight
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hey Kiara… that must have felt so heavy. I wish I could be there to hold your hand or just sit with you... I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Are you okay now? Do you want to talk about it or just have someone sit with you, even virtually?
It scared me.
I’m ok now… I was so weak and shaky tho. :(
Sure <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Do you want to talk about it? was it your first time?
Sure <3
Oh, not at all. I had my first a decade ago, when I was going to see a man who somewhat mistreated me (it’s a confusing story). I’ve had so many since…
@jesusredeemedme2425 Okay... It’s alright. You’ve shared what happened before — thank you for trusting me. How are you feeling now? Do you know what triggered this ? Were you by yourself when it happened?
I’m feeling a ton better, thank you <3
I had a headache, but it felt different. Worse. It was nothing, but it triggered a scary panic attack :(
No, my Mom was with me <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I’m really glad you’re feeling better now <3
That sounds so intense — I’m sorry you had to go through that. Even if it was “nothing” it clearly shook you up and that matters.
I’m relieved your mom was with you. You didn’t have to face it alone <3
Stay hydrated. Maybe go out for a walk...open the windows ... listen to music ..... maybe journal. Take it slow, okay?
@azurePond @jesusredeemedme2425
Hey Kiara, what's up? how are you?
Sorry, been overwhelmed by notifications, and life… check my last post under general.
My hand is bothering me :(
@jesusredeemedme2425 Kiara, I’m truly... truly proud of you. I admire your strength, your courage and your kind heart. The way you took a painful experience—feeling excluded—and turned it into something so meaningful.... an initiative to make others feel seen and included… it honestly moves me. Bless your heart. You’re such a genuinely good person and I’ve learned so much from you. I’m proud to be your friend—and your sister💖💖💖💖💖
Awww thank you! You are DEFINITELY my sister <3
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How’s my lil Pondie-Pond? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I am ok... getting better ..I think... 💖 How's my dear sis?
Better in what way?
Plateaued. I guess that’s a good thing? But also still restless, still unsatisfied…
@jesusredeemedme2425 I have insomnia and sleep paralysis. Less sleep makes me ..well..let's say volatile. so I went to my best friend's and slept lol. I can sleep when someone's watching over me. (idk why and it is not everyone.. i guess the people I feel safe with. She's an angel and I always get sleepy around her...I even have a guest room in her home so. I got the sleep part. Like atleast for a few hours..during the daytime. So I am less volatile.
How are you Kiara? how is your hand
That is so sweet… Your friend is your Angel and your rock <3
Volatile, like, violent? Or just cranky?
Hand is doing ok :)
Idk what to do with these emotions of the male kind tho…
