For Mario and his alters
＠SyriusSystem
Any of your alters can chat with me here, I may not know all of you but im interested to get to know you guys. Fn Im just gonna call out Mario. Super mario frrrrr. How have you been? I miss you sm its actually been forever since I saw you. How are you guys doing? Are you guys still in the hospital or did you guys go home yet?
@Macylou82 How has your guys day been?
@Macylou82
its been aight. how bout urs?
@SyriusSystem Its been alr too i g
@Macylou82
how are you?
@SyriusSystem Im still breathing, wbu?
@Macylou82
i'm not sure
@SyriusSystem I get that
@Macylou82 I would ask if u wanted to talk about it, but as usual im too late. Im sorry
@Macylou82 Hey how are u guys doing these last couple days?
It's been aight. Hbu?
@SyriusSystem Im glad its been alr, that is if ur telling the truth. If im being honest im horrible lol, but whatever am I right?
@Macylou82
not whatvr! wassup, im here for u
@SyriusSystem I don't wanna trigger u and yea its fr whatever
@Macylou82
its almost impossible to trigger me cause it needs to be smthn rlly rlly rlly specific if u wanna trigger me sooooo, c'mon(i also dont wanna force u, if u dont wanna share thas also aight but im still here for u<3)
@SyriusSystem U sure I won't trigger you? Its kinda on the topic of ending and sh and I really don't want to trigger u.
@Macylou82
im 1000% sure i wont be triggered frfr
@SyriusSystem Alr if ur sure... I'll make it not specific tho. So idk I was doing some research on something and I decided to "expeirment" Again I cannot spell, and that meant sh on my wrist which I don't do bc its where mother can see but idk I was just feeling really bad and wanting to leave and so I just didn't think but this "expeirment" won't make me leave I mean it could but usually ppl survive. So I tried it out and ofc it didn't work but now im kinda stressed out about how to hide it and ive had no energy to do my homework this week so ive been laying in bed in the dark all week and now im stressed about finishing all that and im stressing about going to the states and idk im just really stressed and really really wanting to leave before we leave for the states which explains yesterday cause I was just so desperate I tried to do that stupid thing. IM so *** stupid and I really just do not understand why tf im still here. Anyway yea this is really long im sorry
so hru feelin rn?
@SyriusSystem more stressed, I forgot I have to clean my room. Ughhhhh
@Macylou82 oh great I just tracked them and I got like 30min. And I thought I was gonna have time. Nope back to freaking out
@Macylou82
u got time, put on some music and take things on one at a time. uve got this fr
@SyriusSystem I have my music I have my coffee and I got the urge
@Macylou82
have u tried distractions, like watchin a movie or smthn (u prolly have but its worth the try)
@SyriusSystem I need to memorize so I can't with cartagraphy, forums are so weird how do I miss ur messages
@Macylou82 Ok science is done, cartagraphy ani's clean my room and try not to get up this is great just great
@Macylou82 I think I Just wanna sh when im stressed lol
@Macylou82
relatable fr. i honestly don not kno how to deal with sh, idk how ppl get over it
@SyriusSystem Me neither Its not that bad when I do it hidden but mother is finally letting me stay home alone again so I need to pretend ive changed, yk?
@Macylou82
ye i understand, the same thing kinda happened with our mom after we got caught, she would tell us to show the wrists every night bfr bed so stressful fr
@SyriusSystem Yea I can't even do my maps my hands r shaking uh cleaning my room is next i g
@Macylou82
im rootin for ya! <3
@SyriusSystem I just stepped on so many pens... Oops lol
@Macylou82
ouchh! barefoot?
@SyriusSystem Yea. Ok so I guess I cannot find the mop so im done? Shes not gonna accept that but whatever ok now maybe ill be able to finish my homework? Omg my heart is beating so fast bro im so paranoid
@Macylou82
ye she prolly wont notice, maybe u should cut off a bit of the coffee if ur heart is beatin too fast
good job with the cleaning btw! ur doin a good job<3
@SyriusSystem its not the coffee its the stress and the fact that im acc so paranoid idk why bro im acc shaking idk why tho im laughing at how stupid im sounding lol
@Macylou82
nah man u dont sound stupid. ik how cliche this sounds but, deep breaths
@Macylou82 omg these dogs howling is not helping
@Macylou82 Lol nah its not cliche im trying but my breathing is so shaky like my hands
@Macylou82 yk if I wasn't so lazy I wouldn't be in this position but no weak me had to sleep the week away
@Macylou82
i think its like a pre panick attack kinda situation. do u got anything that can keep u grounded around u?
@SyriusSystem No idk I just idk atp im so pathetic
@Macylou82
not pathetic, u just need a lil bit of comforting
@Macylou82
i hate dogs fr
@SyriusSystem WHat"? I have two my babies fr tho Ithink my cat is my fav cause she cuddles when I need her
@Macylou82
idk i aint a huge fan of animals
-its kevin btw, we kinda quick switched just a while ago
@SyriusSystem ok good to know thx for tellimg me hi btw lmao
@Macylou82
hola :3
@Macylou82 Ok I kinda hinted to my friend I want to call so maybe she'll call me and calm me down? idk I cant *** breath and im shaking. Breath just *** god
@Macylou82
i hope ur friend is able to help, fn dont focus too much on breathing. think bout somethin else, like strawberries or blankets or *** like that. try not thinking about breathing (if that makes sense)
@SyriusSystem it makes sense yea shes not helping shes ignoring me and no the world is dizzy I cant see alr im confued tf is going on
@Macylou82
probs depersonalization or dissociation, try putting ur hands in very cold water
@SyriusSystem we dont have cold water lol
@Macylou82
wha? fr? wat about in the bathroom? like the cold tap water
@Macylou82 ok im breathing kinda honetly I think I quit in trying to finishing my homeork its so bad my hands r shaking so bad it looks so bad u cannot read it
@Macylou82 ok *** the streak but I can kinda breath and can kinda see just cannot breath and cannot type lol oh god its everyhere
@Macylou82
alrght.. try count breathing, form a sort of straw like shape with ur mouth and breath in and out slowly thru ur mouth, count 1 2 3 as u breath in and 4 5 6 as u breath out
repeat it while touching ur chest
@SyriusSystem alr ill try omg im getting it everywhere
@Macylou82 fend callintg cant type im sorrry gnight an ty i cannot type tho
@Macylou82
night i hope it goes well, see ya
@Macylou82
its ok, u can put off the homework for some other time
rn just try getting out of the dissociated state
@SyriusSystembro this has never happened before idk why this happeneing now
@Macylou82
it happens bcs of high anxiety or stress( i think) 0^0
@Macylou82 I am so so so sorry, idk what happened or why I was so panicked maybe cause that's never happened before idk, and tysm for helping me it means a lot fr but I really am sorry, im really lucky to have u guys tho fr and it prob would have been so much worse if u didn't help me. So tysm again an im sorry again.
@Macylou82
no need to be sorry, always glad to help.
@SyriusSystem You guys are the best fr, im lucky to have you all as my friends.
We're the lucky ones actually. You're a very good friend ð§¡
@SyriusSystem How?
You're always there to listen to anyone when you can, you never judge, you're honest and kind to everyone. Those qualities are rare in people these days
@SyriusSystem Aw tysm you making me blush lol
@Macylou82 Yk your always there for me, you always make me smile, and you get me like most ppl don't. Ima really miss you guys
We'll miss you too ð§¡very much
@SyriusSystem Anyway away from that sadness, got anything fun planned for the day?
No, not me atleast. You?
@SyriusSystem Me neither
@Macylou82 And mothers up so I have to go so yea Ill respond when I can which is hard cause weekends its really hard to get on but yea. Tysm again and ily all of you
Love you too 𧡠have a great day
Hi? Is this Jane? What's this place?
@SyriusSystem Hey, my name is well my actual name is bella but I go by macy this is just a space for your system and you if you want and me to talk and vent and stuff.
@Macylou82
Oh! Hi Macy, pleased to meet you. Sorry for the mix up, it's been a while since I was last front. My name is Elize and I'm the system manager. I happened to stumble on this website while browsing on our computer. Seeing as though you've talked to other alters, I presumed you were a friend of ours who's familiar with most of us.
@SyriusSystem Hi Elize its nice to meet you. Its ok, yea ive met alot of your alters so I guess u can consider me a system friend? Idk but yea lol
@Macylou82 How was the weekend for you guys?
Idk I Don remembah 😶🌫️
U?
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@SyriusSystem Are you guys alr? Mine was the same boring lol
Maciooooouuuuu how du u do ÷3
@SyriusSystem Mariooooo I do horrible lol, wbu?
@Macylou82 I have some bad news... As yk I am traveling back to the states, well my mother is being firm on me leaving my computer here and she does always say this and I always bring it/ sneak it but this time she is firmer and im worried she will hide my computer so I cannot pack it. We leave in a week, but we have guests coming and it will be a hectic week so idk if I will be able to get on, hence why im telling you this now. There is a chance that I will be able to bring it but those chances are low but if I do bring it I will let you know April 5th or 6th but I wouldn't count on me bringing it. Now I will be back June 2nd but Ik you guys are leaving May or June and I don't want to miss saying goodbye so here's your goodbye just in case. Worst case you all get two goodbyes lol
My wonderful amazing awesome friends. I have had the honor to meet a lot of you and become your friend. You guys have been there for me at my darkest times. You guys are always there for me, and I really apreciate it. I am really going to miss you all, and its not fair that life has been so cruel to you guys, but you guys are staying strong and fighting and im proud of you fr. I love all of you, and it has been an honor to be your friend/macio. Goodbye my amazing strong brilliant friends.
Naurrrrrrrr 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 u can't just leave like that Macy 😔 imma keep my fingers crossed until u text back in apirill soooooooooʻo u better come back.. if not 😭 well I'll rlly miss u
Ik we don't talk that much but still I consider u my friend 🥹🥹🥹 ur the most amazingest person ever to exist frfrrrr luv u so so much ❤️❤️ (idk why I'm being so emotional fr🥹😭😭😭) but pls pls come back, I wanted to put my fav songs on the goodbye day so u could hear them too 🥹🥹
@SyriusSystem No the thing is the only way I would text u all in april is if I somehow find a way to sneak it and idk if thats a possibilty this time. Im still here for the rest of the day but im so sorry im gonna miss you sm. give them to me now? I wanna cry ngl im really going to miss you all
We'll miss u more eeeeee 😭😭😭😭 wait I'm ✋️ gonna find my collection and see the ones I wanted to show u 🎶 ✨️ 💕
@SyriusSystem Ill miss you all toooooo. Yayayayaya I cannot wait to listen
Ending -hitsujibungaku
Tears -hitsujibungaku
Mikael -meaningful stone
Esc -meaningful stone
Psychomania -meaningful stone
Your blood -aurora
To be alright - aurora
Clocks -Coldplay
Athena -se seo neon
@SyriusSystem I will listen to them all ima make a playlist rn of them. Tysm
Very long list 😭😭 but these are one of my favss buttttttttt it might not be ur style if u don't like loud stuff 🤐🤣🤣🤣🤣 or E guitars 😅
@SyriusSystem I am listening to rap rn acc lol. Gimmieeeee
Yeyaaaaa 👽👽👽👾👻👻 oh alsoo there might be a bit of a language barrier 🫠🙃😄😁😁😁
@SyriusSystem Nah its alr I think ik a lil french like one sentence lol
Nah it's like, korean and Japanese most of them 💀😶🌫️🥲😙😙😙😙🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 but for the french song that's chill u coulddd listen to
Mentor c'est pas beau by wamen
@SyriusSystem ooh Ik how to count in japeneaze to like ten lol also bro forums are fr so weird I cannot find the list again I was gonna take a photo
Ouuuu super impressive 👏 👌 🙌 👍 💪 also wait, imma take a copy paste thingy and repost
@SyriusSystem alr thx
Alsoo alsoooo tell me the one u like the most 😙😙😙
It's rin btw lol 🫠
@SyriusSystem Hiya rin thx for letting me know
@Macylou82 Man what happened to the list these lines are so confusing they just swallow some of our messages
I'm on the phone so I can't see loll 🤣🤣😋
But here's a screenshot thingy https://ibb.co/TBj8HBc4
@SyriusSystem lol thx ima go take a photo rn
Good luck 👍 💓 ✨️
@SyriusSystem Ok created tho I couldn't find a couple of the songs, now to listen once this add is over lol
Hi Macy 👋, how are you?
@Macylou82 How was your guy's day?