For a special friend
Hi @bestVase7265. Hello. I'm here, and hoping to God you are here too.
I know I disappeared for a long time, 6 months or so and I've honestly been ashamed about it. I kept procrastinating reaching out because I felt guilty, especially remembering what you were going through with your dad's illness. I’m really sorry I vanished. I still thought about you a lot and wanted to check in. I wasn't in a too good space mentally. I shut out everything. I have so much to tell you but keeping this message short. I want to say I'm sorry but even to say that I'm feeling shame. You do not repeat the behaviour after a sorry but I seem to be repeating my MIA often. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like I wasn't coming back, which can never be true. I feel immense guilt on not replying back but it seems to be a loop of guilt and avoidance. I deeply apologise. I wish I could fix it. How have you been?
@querencia798
(Moved for privacy).
@bestVase7265 I badly want to write you a long message but this app isn't letting me send because it contains some words that it thinks might be self-/harm crisis which IT IS NOT. Idk what's wrong with this app. Where do ppl like us go? I'm honestly so frustrated. I need you.
Sorry that you are having such trouble with the app. I have found it works better on a computer. Send things to me in smaller snippets.
I am looking forward to hearing from you. @querencia798
I found your message on the other thread. I will be looking at both in another few hours to see if there is anything new. @querencia798