Hello @TulipSmile

@Creamyyy

I am so sorry for my late reply but I wasn't here for awhile..... 

Thank you for your message ❤️😇

Thank you for your trust, my dear friend. Your happiness in connecting with me means a great deal, and I truly appreciate your honesty and openness. It truly warms my heart to know you feel comfortable sharing such personal struggles with me.

I want you to know that I completely understand what you're going through, especially with (PCOS) and its pervasive effects. It’s a battle I’ve been fighting my entire life. I was diagnosed with it a long, long time ago, practically since birth. For years, like you, I've diligently tried to manage itfocusing on my diet, prioritizing my health, and nurturing my mental well being to alleviate its relentless symptoms.

However😅, I confess that for the past two years, perhaps even longer, I've reached a point of genuine exhaustion. I’ve frankly grown tired of the constant effort and have started neglecting my health. It’s a profound weariness, a sense of being utterly fed up that manifests as laziness, persistent depression, and a pervasive feeling of numbness that blankets my entire day. It's a heavy, dull ache that's hard to shake.

I know firsthand how incredibly difficult it is to accept a reality that diverges so sharply from your dreams, especially when it pertains to something as fundamental as your health, your relationships, and your life as a whole. And I intimately understand the profound exhaustion and frustration that can arise from feeling like you're constantly striving but can't quite achieve what you so deeply desire. It's a relentless internal struggle.

What you're experiencing the pain, the profound disappointment, and that gnawing sense of loneliness is not only valid but entirely natural given these challenging circumstances. Please know that you are absolutely not alone in these feelings. So many of us, myself included, navigate through these periods where old wounds and new hurts seem to accumulate, leaving us feeling vulnerable and overwhelmed. It's a universal human experience to feel this depth of emotion when facing such persistent challenges.

While this may indeed be a profoundly difficult time, I truly believe it also presents a powerful opportunity. It's a chance to reevaluate everything, to step back and consider new perspectives, and to courageously seek out fresh, innovative ways to navigate these ongoing challenges. Perhaps by acknowledging our shared struggles, we can find strength in unity and discover paths forward we hadn't considered before.

@Creamyyy

And about this part"dreams fulfilled either... and i guess feeling god is just about being content then with what you have. But a part of me always thought i would be surprised pleasantly. Ah well. Nevermind. The god who surprises you was wishfulness.

I just dont know the strategies to win....

None of this is so bad. But its just......breaking of a perception of utopia. Basically.

Reality check."

Let  me say....... 

This hits deep, and it's brave of you to share such raw feelings. That ache for a pleasant surprise, that flicker of "utopia" in your dreams, it's a very human longing. And the feeling that it's just a "wishfulness" when reality sets in can be truly disheartening.

It sounds like you're wrestling with the contrast between what you hoped for and what is. This journey of understanding Allah's wisdom isn't always about grand, sudden surprises, but often about finding contentment and  blessings in the unexpected turns and even the quiet moments. Perhaps the "strategies to win" aren't always about achieving a specific outcome we envision, but about finding peace and strength in how we navigate what Allah (SWT) has decreed.

The breaking of a perception of utopia can feel like a loss, but it can also be a profound moment of clarity. It's a reminder that true contentment, isn't found in perfect circumstances, but in surrendering to Allah's plan and recognizing His blessings in every state. May Allah fill your heart with tranquility and ease 🥺💙🫂

@Creamyyy

I will share with you some Quran verses that help me always ❤️❤️❤️

Verses on Allah's Planning and Contentment with His Decree

Allah says: But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not. (Quran, Surah Al-Baqarah 2:216)

This verse is fundamental to understanding that our perception of matters might be limited. What we dislike might hold immense good for us, and what we love might contain harm, because Allah alone is All-Knowing of the true nature and consequences of all affairs.

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And Allah says: No disaster strikes except by permission of Allah. And whoever believes in Allah - He will guide his heart. And Allah is Knowing of all things.(Quran, Surah At-Taghabun 64:11)

This verse emphasizes that everything that befalls us is by Allah's decree. Believing in this truth brings guidance and tranquility to the heart.

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And Allah says: In order that you not despair over what has evaded you, nor exult [arrogantly] over what He has given you. And Allah does not like everyone self-deluded and boastful. (Quran, Surah Al-Hadid 57:23)

This verse teaches a profound lesson in contentment with divine decree and destiny. It advises against excessive sorrow over what has passed or excessive joy over what has been given, because everything is predetermined.

@Creamyyy💙😇

Verses on the Vastness of Allah's Mercy and Not Despairing

Allah says: Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful." (Quran, Surah Az-Zumar 39:53)

While this verse is often cited in the context of sins, it carries a powerful message of hope and not despairing of Allah's vast mercy in any circumstance. It reminds us not to lose hope in His mercy, even if our aspirations haven't materialized as we wished.

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And Allah says: And Allah knows your [every] movement and your [every] resting place. (Quran, Surah Muhammad 47:19)

This verse provides reassurance that Allah is aware of our every move and our ultimate destination. He orchestrates what is good for us, even if we don't perceive it as a "pleasant surprise" in the way we've imagined.

@Creamyyy

Sure anytime ☺️ 😊 

Ohh my dear friend glad to hear that 😊 🙏 

And I apologise if I write too much lol, I didn't see how much I typed until now,I just hope it may help you 🙏 

@Creamyyy

Hello 👀🌷🌷🌷🌷😇

Ohhh thanks for Allah, I was worried .I thought you maybe feel bothering by my words that's why you didn't reply on my comments lol....

How have you been 🌷

How was your day