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Helloo here's the pen pal in question, looking forward to getting to know you🧡
@jesusredeemedme2425
Hiiiiii!!!! I’m Kiara. You seem like an awesome person! Tell me about you? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
ahh so the forum did work! 🤣
i'm a teen trying to magically transform into an adult! time seems to be moving way too fat for me😅 tho i try not to think about it too much ^^
hbu? i want to know more about you too!🥰
Yes it did hehe
Yeah… Transitioning isn’t the easiest lol. Do you have a job yet? Planning on college? Etc. I Can give you tips if you tell me more lol.
Here’s a hint… I’m in my 30s. I don’t REMOTELY have life figured out yet XD So don’t feel super pressured lol
I love reading, drawing, hiking, watching movies (especially kids movies lol), food (too much lol), serving others, and more <3 Hbu????
@jesusredeemedme2425
i don't have a job since my mom won't let me😅 (she's the controling type) i'm going to college next year, if i pass this year ofc🙃! i was just going to wing it with the college stuff but life isn't looking too good rn😅 so, i'm focusing more on finding a college that would accept me, looking for another major(i didn't even have one to begin with) andd i also want to try and convince my mom to let me get a job😮💨🤗 and all that side mental stuff
i didn't expect you to be in the 30s tbh😭 (not judging ofc) how is life in the 30s? is it any different? does life pass by slower? are taxes hard to do?😭 i already feel pressuredd
i like, music, painting, piano, decoration, fashion, all that is fantasy tv series, bands, rock(music lol) andd the wind😊
Why not?
Would you want to go to a community college or like a big university with dorms and such?
Wing it how?
Will your parents being paying for college, or do you have financial aid?
What ideas do you have for your major?
What kind of job would you want? Full or part time?
Side mental stuff?
Lollll is my age bad? XD
It’s hard to generalize because… I only lived one life XD But I’ll try hehe. I was going to college when I was around your age. I was TERRIFIED of people, but I learned to love school and my clubs and such! I didn’t get a job until like 5 years later. Job searching is TOUGH, dude. Like… filling out paper applications. Ugh. Lol!
Tbh idk if life passes by slower. Like, in general. Im tired and move more slowly sometimes now, but I’m dealing with a MASSIVE amount of depression and PTSD and such, so I have no idea what’s that stuff vs. what’s me being older. If that makes sense.
Taxes… Ugh. I’ll be honest. They’re SO STINKIN HARD lol! BUT! Online tax apps are your best friend! I do mine online every year now. SOOOOO much easier!!!! Lol
Pressured how?
What kind of music and fantasy TV?
The wind?
@jesusredeemedme2425
because when i get a job she won't be getting money fromthe government to take care of me
i'd loveee to go to a big uni with nice dorms but mother! she prefers that i stay at home and go to a community college, she doesn't want me seeing any boys😂
wing it like, let nature take it's course and keep the "it is what it is " mentality
my parents will pay for the college
idk what i want to do in life, i've never really been interested in life, just want to be free i guess, but my mom wants me to be a doctor( heart surgeon to be exact)
full time job ofc, if i'm going to be a doctor😅
side mental stuff as in, dealing with anxiety, depression, derealization and dissociation while balancing everything with my school life(which is not getting any easier, mostly with no professional help)
your age isn't bad!😭 i just never talked to someone way older than me, as a friend(only people older than me that i talk to are my teachers and my mom 😬)
now i'm REAL scared of taxes 😭 i've confirmed that i'm definitely NOT ready for adult world!💀
pressured like, how i'm ever going to be my own person, and find myself in this mess i call "me" lol
i listen to every music, rock, classical, j-pop, chinese, korean bands, r&b, indie rock, pop, melancholic etc etc and for fantasy tv, there's supernaturals, teen wolf, preacher, moon knight, the flash, rick and morty (lol) etc etc
and i like the wind because it makes me feel alive🥰 just like swimming
(phew that's a lot of typing!😊)
@goldenduckling
now i've gotto go sleep! big day tmrrw, i have a math exam idk if i already said that XD(almost 1am🥲) i'll see you tomorroww🥰 take caree! goodnightt!
That’s a thing?? What country do you live in?
Lol, why no boys???
Why wing it?
That’s awesome that they’re paying for it <3
Why not be who you’re created to be? <3
Full time job and full time school???
Do you have DID? Btw, some, if not all, colleges provide free counseling! Take advantage of that <3
Bahahaha “way older…” thanks. ;)
Wanna know a secret about people in their 30s vs. teens and younger adults? <3
Lol! Even older adults don’t find it fun. Just do it online and you’ll be fine :)
Bruh. I’m still like that myself. Being older didn’t make me much more sure of myself XD
I love Christian rock and metal hehe
You said you’re a Christian? <3 What denomination? <3
I haven’t gone swimming in ages lol
Yeah it's a thing here in Canada 🇨🇦 😄 I thought it was also a thing in other countries but I guess not
Because boys distract from studies 😅
Wing it because I'm tired of thinking🥲
Yeah, ofc they're paying, I have no money 🫠
I'm trying to be, but it's hard when someone else is imposing me to be who she wants (my mom)
Well not at the same time 🤣🤣part time job while going at full time school then full time job after finishing school 🙃
No I don't have DID, I thought I did for some time but it's not possible, I'm looking forward to the free counseling then, I need it!!
Yes tell me the secretttt 🙊
There's a non online option?💀
Fr? So you mean nothing changes even after you're older?? If so, then I'm cooked 🤣🫢
I'm a protestant my mom is too ❣️
You should go swimming sometimee it's really nice 👌 ☺️
I mean, if you’re poor and have kids, you can get free money, sorta. But not a ton. Lol
Lol, are you boy crazy? Hehe
Can you do a Liberal Arts major? I did. (Haven’t graduated yet lol) You can take a bunch of classes, but not commit to like, a specific goal? Is that a thing in Canada?
Hey, I mean, financial aid lol
What does your mom want and why? Have you talked to her about it? Maybe write her a letter?
Yeah, don’t do full time work and full time school. Sleep is necessary. XD
What are derealization and dissociation like?
I love doing counseling with the interns, because they’re close to my age and we get along so well <3
People my age feel exactly the same as the ones your age. Our bodies just hurt more XD But seriously, I still think and act like I’m your age. Being “older” doesn’t change you as much as you think it does. I still wanna go play on the swings! <3
Yeah, taxes here are on paper. Doing it online is a relatively recent thing. (Ok, maybe like decades, idk, but it was all paper when I was a kid lol)
Bro. Turning 18 doesn’t magically mean you figure your life out instantly XD Life is a WIP. You can’t always see the turn in the road ahead of you, you just roll with it lol
I am too, non-denominational :)
I don’t have access to a pool hehe
@jesusredeemedme2425
i'm not even boy crazy! i'm not interested in teen relationshipping rn (if that even is a word) XD she just sees the other teen girls that are around me having boyfriends and think that i'll be the same😮💨
i think it's a thing in canada, but i just haven't heard of it yet(or got told about it and forgot lol😅)
my mom wants me to have "the life she never had" because she loves me😐 atleast that's her excuse for everything she forces me to do😂 i can't talk to her about it(tried to) because to her, that's being indisciplined and disobedient behavior, going against a parent's wish/ "order" i honestly don't know what i want in life at this point, all my life i've just been living for her and not myself so idk
even with no full time job i'm still sleep deprived, these days the insomnia is hitting HARD😭 i sleep only 3 to 4 hours a day(on good days) so i walk around with dark circle looking like a zombie and people go "r u ok?" every time they see me🤣
derealization is like, when you see the world like a movie, it's like you're not living in the moment, it's all just not real(or something like that) for me it's seeing life like a movie and dissociation can be linked to derealization, because when you experience derealization you also experience dissociation, like having an "out of body" experience and disconnecting from reality or "not being there completely" as others would put it😶🌫️
ahh so i'll be as messed up in my 30s as i am in my teen days, relieving but also disappointing😂 i thought adults were great savants that knew it all about life! guess not huh but it's nice to see that tastes don't change as much at least!
that's exactly how i viewed 18 and how people told me 18 "should be", they say that by 18, you should already have your crap together and "mature up" and i'm still here trying to figure out how i'll deal with all that😭
what's non-denominational?
aww shamee( i would recommend public pools but they're way too disgusting!)
@goldenduckling
Remind me to respond to this later <3
I have very bad memory 🥲 idk if I'll remember to remind you 😅
@jesusredeemedme2425
helloo! how was your day? how was work(if you went)? did you do anything fun today? (do you still find the same things you used to do when you were a teen fun till today?😯 just curious🙃 'cause i heard people's tastes change as they grow up!)
Heyyyy :)
I went driving today! (I recently got my license. Do you drive?) I also went to an LFL :)
I didnt work today. Yay!
Absolutely! I still like journaling (although hard because I have carpal tunnel now, yay), drawing, reading, etc. I still have similar interests. I’m just glad the tech has improved since I was a teen… Dial-up sucked XD
Your tastes don’t like completely change lol. But like, I went plant-based for awhile, and now my body has little tolerance for HFCS, so I can’t really eat it anymore lol. So that changed. I also eat a lot of junk food lol
Btw, feel free to grill me about life and stuff. I’m open :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
cool! day off^^ what's your job? (if you don't mind me asking)
i haven't gotten my licence yet, i'm in driving school next year though!🥳 i should've gone when i was 16 but stuff came up😬
the body aching will either go up for me or it won't be a big difference because i already have pain all over😂
i'll def be grilling! XD but you should also do the same, i'm here for you too🥰 i don't want it to be a only onesided thing!
@goldenduckling
also, what's carpal tunnel? 0o0
I don’t feel comfy telling what my job is lol! I hope you don’t mind. The internet is too public lol XD
I’ve never done driving school, but my ex did an AMAZING job teaching me to drive <3
What causes the pain?
I like people learning from me <3
Ok, why do the younger ones not know about things like 9/11, the Holocaust, etc?
Carpal tunnel: long story short, my hand doesn’t work right anymore. Twitches too. Have to wear a wrist brace when it gets REALLY bad lol! It’s manageable. Just obnoxious. XD
@jesusredeemedme2425
ofc it's totally A-Okay if you don't tell me! and you're right, we can never be too sure these days😅
wait so then, how did you get your permit if you didn't go to driving school?😮
usually work outs, bad sleeping habits, terribly heavy backpack etc etc the list goes onnn
and i like learning from people^^!! (great combo fr 😁)
because they don't pay attention in history class?😔 i know i do! but somehow when i close my eyes for one second and open them, it seems that the bell already rang🧐 strange 😗 XD
oh! sorry you've got that, is it from a previous injury or did it just randomly occur?💚
You could be an old dude who’s a creeper. You never know with the internet XD
Driving school isn’t required for an adult. It’s:
Take written test
Get permit
Practice driving with an experienced driver
Take driving text
Get license
Change the narrative. ;)
Ask me stuff lol
Weird how my experiences are now history lol
Yeah, I injured myself volunteering. Sucks, right? Now I can’t do that gig anymore :(
@jesusredeemedme2425
old dude creeper 😭hellpp😭
wait so now that when i'm 18(considered adult) does that mean i don't have to go to driving school? if soo then that would be awesomee🥳!
your experience is the stuff of legends frfrr
it is sad that you can't do the work anymore<3 is there a way for your hand to completely heal?💜
also, sorry for the response😅 school is driving me nutsss!
how was your day and how are you?💙
I suck at responding in a decent manner, time-wise lol
Hey, you never know. I could be an 80 year old man with a Harley and tattoos and a pet mongoose who eats hippos. You never know XD
Don’t take everything I say as Gospel, because idk everything XD But Let’s put it this way: I didn’t need driving school. But then, I started driving YEARS after I turned 18. So that’s a thing. Lol
Are you in America, or elsewhere? Did I ask you that already? Lol
The stuff of legends? Lol. How so?
They gave me meds, but I haven’t taken them. It’s been under control so far. I just gotta be careful what I do and how long.
Also it’s not super bad that I can’t do that gif anymore. I serve in other capacities :) I bring food to events and stuff too lol
Life is driving me nuts! Lol. Tempted to shut down :(
My day was insane lol, and I’m… eh. Lol
How’s school? How’s Ducky??? Hehe (I forgot your pseudonym lol. I’m just thinking of Ducky from Land Before Time) :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm in Canada( I don't think you asked)
sorry, my response will be a little bit sloppy😅. these past few days have been hard, balancing life and school and everything else while burnt out, isn't very pleasant to do.. but here I am^^
Life is driving me nuts too, i guess we're in the same boat<3
school is school, stressful, scary, somehow fun sometimes and crapy. I'm hanging in there, slowly breaking but hanging on( also you can call me ducky is you like lol)
sorry for the late reply btw
how've you been? anything new?
Remind me to respond to this later :)
I forgot to respond :(
Are you alive lol hehe
How goes life? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm half dead
@jesusredeemedme2425
sorry that i haven't been on that much lately, life's going downwards😅 i'm burnt out way too early, school's almost over though, so yay!
how've you been?
I’m sorry, school can be so rough :(
I’m… struggling.
@jesusredeemedme2425
i feel you <3 want to share what's going on? i'm here to lend a listening ear, for a friend💙
Mom’s sickness, then the ER trip today…
@jesusredeemedme2425
sending hugs to the both of you. i pray that she'll be okay and have a quick recovery💜
She’s home now, and doing a lot better <3
It took a HUGE toll on me tho…
@jesusredeemedme2425
really?! I'm so relieved!😭 I was worried<3 (idk why i was so worried) I'm glad she's better now:)
ofc it took a toll on you, it must've been like a sudden earthquake yk, like a sudden boom! i feel you💙
how are you coping?
Because you care about me, so you care about her? :)
Thank you :) She’s not out of the woods yet, but quite a bit better <3
This isn’t my first rodeo with hospitals… But it came when I was already weak, so it hit harder.
Curled up in a ball in my bed is my vibe rn
@jesusredeemedme2425
i understand the curling up in a ball<3 there's not much to do when feeling so vulnerable and hopeless
aaghh i wish i could just hug you and say it'll all be okay!💙 you're very strong and it's fine to just breathe out and cry too, it's allowed for the strong too💛
sorry i can't do much to comfort you, but be here
Vulnerable, hopeless, and tired. So tired. Exhausted…
Virtual hugs work too <3
I hate being called strong… No one sees my shattered heart.
Being here is the BEST <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
sending you the biggest warmest hugsss<3 i know how it feels, being called strong when you just feel low and dead, but you being here, talking freely about it, wanting to be better, that's very admirable and believe it or not, even falling can show how strong you are when you get back up, and i'm 100% sure that you can get up!it's fine to not be okay, it's fine to take a breather, you're human
and you've got this too:)
@goldenduckling
i also rlly love being heree^^!
Sometimes idk how I keep going, but I do, and I don’t want to stop. But idk how I possibly have strength when I’m so empty and broken…
Idk how to let out my emotions, the ones I can physically feel in my chest, the ones that burn and hurt like mad on the inside. Letting them out isn’t me. I’m “Kiara you’re so strong, I admire you, you’re always happy and good-natured, you never show pain” while I’m also “no one sees my bleeding, shattered heart, I cry on the inside, my physical health is suffering because of my emotional abyss, I’m struggling to function on a daily level and no one sees the absolute h**l of what I face every day…”
I went to get the car when she got discharged, and I just sat there for a moment and uttered a groan from deep within my soul… A sound of pain and sadness and… something. Deep and sorrowful and hurt.
@jesusredeemedme2425
*offers comforting hugs* i understand the feeling, always having to act tuff, people not being able to see the pain you're going through. it's not easy at all<3 plus having so much happen, plus your mothers condition, it must feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders.
i may not know much about support, or helping.. but im here. i want you to know that i'm here, i see your pain and i hear your cries💚 and ill try and help you through these cold days. you don't have to worry about putting on a filter when here, you can show your pain, and i'll be here to comfort you to the best of my abilities💛
Idk how I've managed to not have a complete and total mental break in the past few days…
@jesusredeemedme2425
because you've been burying it all in
Shouldn’t that make me break down more?
@jesusredeemedme2425
it wouldnt happen now, but it will in the future, if you keep burrying things inside
Challenge?
@jesusredeemedme2425
what kind?
I challenge you to make a penpal chat with someone new :) Give them an “out”, in the first post, if they don’t want to or don’t feel comfy. Make a new friend! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
oh! that's a difficult challenge! 😅 do i have a time limit? i'm not on a lot so idk how many opportunities i'll get
Lol it’s easy! Whose personality draws you to them? :)
No time limit lol
You can write back to them whenever! Just tell them that your responses may be sporadic. They’ll understand :)
I just wanted to give you a heads up (I’m sending this to all my active penpal chats):
I’ve been on 7Cups a lot lately and typing is bothering my carpal tunnel. I’ve also been reaching burnout, and haven’t been accomplishing things I want to do lol!
So I may be slow in responding, while giving my hand and my mind a bit of a rest. Please be patient with my slower responses! <3
ALSO… If I ever take longer than maybe 5 days to respond, the notification may have disappeared. Just send me a reminder post to send me a new notification, to remind me to respond :)
Thanks for understanding! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
i hope that you're able to rest up well! 💛
I’m trying! And failing lol
Did you see my nominations post? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
no sorry, i don't believe i did😅 i have a pile of notifications! and rlly little time to check them all
No worries lol
Tonight’s challenge: Knock out at least one “Needs Reply” post <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
done! sorry for the late reply😭
Thank you so much! <3 There’s 8 left :)
I was thinking about doing an interview series with members and listeners. Thoughts?
@jesusredeemedme2425
what sort of interview is it?
It was going to be interviews with individuals, about themselves or different physical or mental issues. But I didn’t realize that the team was already doing them lol
@jesusredeemedme2425
ohh rlly? i didn't know it already existed 😮
Most seem to be from years ago tho