Miss you, Noah

Hey! I feel like a menace dropping all these posts for you 🤓 you forgive me tho right/j 

(i have no idea what Im doing here)

friday is nearing 💀

lets think about something else…

i dont know if i should tag you since if you come back you may get a new username?

@BuddyWinte just incase- 

I hope your mom loses a huge chunk of her memory and forgets how to be mean. That would solve alot i think. And yeet away any school bullies and our work here is done 👍🏻👍🏻

Ugh i miss you :/ 

(Dropping u a little msg tho i shldnt even BE on cups xD) 

Smtimes i feel like i last talked to you a few days ago and sometimes it feels like years ago :/ 

Hi, Noah 👋🏻 @BuddyWinte @CatHanderOutNoah @ whateverusernameyoumightuse

You know, if cups is really really annoying you- and i get it like uff the conflicts were awful- you dont have to like come back back. Just drop a little message? Or heart a post? I dont know, just say youre alive? 

Sorry if that sounded insensitive :/ 

Been about two months since you pulled your second disappearing act of the year. Im still waiting for your second re-appearing act, here, Noah. Hurry up now. For every month you take youre going to have to deal with another level of annoyingness and worry when you come back 🤓 

(I put a pizza sticker, can you see it?)

TW i had a flight last friday. There was turbulence. I kinda got thrown slightly onto the other seat. Hurt my back like crazy- no actual injury just my back being weak xD Im okay now- but its a good thing itll be months till i get on another plane xD

Mom is…mom is being mom. A bit lesser so. Do you remember that one time you told me your mom was being nicer? And then she got worse again didnt she? Like the calm before the storm/hj 

The awful moms club is a bit lonely nowadays. 

Couldnt we have been part of the good moms club? Wonder what you have to do to get there.

Sorry, these are supposed to be cheerful welcomes when you return. Not eyes brooding xD is the pizza helping, atleast? 

Did I change? Do I…talk different now? Act different? You would know, when you come back. It makes me feel weird. What if you come back and im different and then you feel weird? Why do i overthink so much xD 

but tbh if you changed, if you were different, i think you’d still be my friend

I made a nice, long post a few days ago, and it didnt send. Honestly. And i barely got to open cups after. Why is cups restricting me from annoying you 😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️

Trying to remember what i said xD i gave you an eyes update: my college (class11) starts on 15th aug. ta-da! Ugh. Not excited, but it cant be worse than home, yeah?

Ive been wishing I was as brave as you, Noah. How many times did you run away? Some people might see that as cowardly, but sometimes running away is the bravest thing you can do. I dont have the guts to go to the upper floor of the house without permission, let alone leave the house itself. It’s a shame. 

I’d ask you to talk about yourself, but you're being very stubborn in that regard, aren't you?

hm hm hm

idk why i leave you all these msgs. Never did it for anyone else. Idk, dont know if ur coming back but if you do im not letting you think you werent missed, thats for sure. When you get an annoyingly long number of notifications when youre back, you know who to blame. Me. I have no regrets xD 

life is so damn annoying. Ive had vaca for three months and im still burnt-out. Im doing all the mental health things, okay, im sleeping, im eating, im drinking water, im talking about it, im using grounding techniques, but i still feel awful 

so many “I’s” in that paragraph.

i miss talking to you a ton. Miss how simple it was. How easy. How safe. 

I get why you used to say you didnt feel like cups was giving you as much as you were giving us. I absolutely get it. And you were right- you deserved way more, way better. Better than all those stupid fights. Theyre lesser, but theyre not gone, and alot of…everyone is gone. I mean, our friends, you know? Theyre not around much anymore. And some…other updates, dont know if you wld want to hear them from me. Even i dont come on cups so often anymore. I thought someday id move on from cups. Looks like cups moved on from me, instead

I’d said something in my didnt-post-post, about how im writing dear Noah instead of dear diary. Hows that, eh? Youre more important than a diary anyways.

Hey, if you come back, ill give you cats instead of the other way around this time. Promise. You dont even have to stay- just come, get your cats, and be off on your merry way. Hows that sound? @CatHanderOutNoah @BuddyWinte

@CatHanderOutNoah @BuddyWinte

Do you remember when we fell under?

Did you expect me to reason with thunder?

I still remember when time was frozen

What seemed forever was just a moment

Hurry up, hurry up

There's no more waiting

We're still worth saving

- Feel the Light by Jennifer Lopez

So, um, hello! Its been 3days of college. This one absolutely annoying girl came and crushed a flower i was drawing while i was still drawing and i wanted to fight her but i cnt get in trouble in the *first* week itself, thats too much. Had some ear problems and couldnt hear, now i can hear vey well, its slightly overwhelming but im...adjusting. um, trying to study. Keyword being trying. I made sm frnds in college today. Maybe. If they dont ignore me on monday. Thats happened to me, but uh lets see? The teachers are nice. Small mercies.

If you come back and read all this, will you be annoyed or amused? Lemme know, will ya?

Miss ya, be safe, all that ❤️

@BuddyWinte @CatHanderOutNoah

Hey, Noah! Okay um, eyes update: cpllege is tiring, mom is tiring, ive...been wanting a hug really badly recently, and ive been pretending to be okay infront of- well, everyone. Tired. So so tired tbh.

Obviously, missing you. My brain just said King Noah of the Woodlands xD come outta the woods for a bit and lemme know ur okay, okay? Ill wait 🫶

🎶well what can i say except I miss you!🎶 (yes i changed the lyrics dont fight me. Or rather, do fight me. Ill be grinning like a madman the whole time just about having you here)

This unknown number of eyes is wondering if i (we? Since i use plural "eyes" or- they? Third person?) Need glasses. Its- i can see most of everything, just sometimes things blur 🤷‍♀️

That was too much of an eyes update! Infact, this place is littered with eyes! Give us some Noah updates, before cups explodes 🤓

Be safer than safe 💕

Hey Mr.CatHanderOut, @CatHanderOutNoah @BuddyWinte , i usually wait for a few days to pass before adding on another message but today was just...alot. good and bad! Both! Equally! Im just overwhelmed i guess. You used to notice when i was feeling...wrong. ay, i shldnt have said that. Now im sad xD okay well, dont you worry about me, alright? Ill drop something cheerful in here soon, be safe, miss you ❤️