Miss you, Noah
@CatHanderOutNoah
I didn’t know where to post this, or if there’s any point in doing so, but I guess I kinda needed to. I want to say that when you’re back, I hope you find this but
But.
It’s more of an “if” than a “when”, huh?
I can’t be mad at you, or anything but proud, because you tried so so hard and for so so long and even when you saw no reason to you tried again.
Thank you for that.
I’m sorry if this means it failed.
Why am I making this, when what you said was painfully clear? Maybe it’s because part of me just can’t stop hoping and believing in you, and if I still live in a world with you, and you come back, well, I can’t have you believe you weren’t missed.
Because I do miss you. I insanely miss you right now. The day you were gone, it was like every fiber in my being was yelling your name.
The day you were gone.
What’s that mean for us, if the kindest, bravest, strongest of us is gone?
If, or when, and please let it be when, you see this, and think, what am i blabbering, I’ll try to say it more clearly and briefly,
I miss you, Noah.
To @CatHanderOutNoah, and all the wonders you are.
People will think i have no other frnds atp Noah xD theyll think im lonely. I am in a way, arent i? Just not how they myt think.
Cmon ur making me look silly and desperate 😛 was this your plan all along? 🤔 to reveal how dramatic and sappy i am? 🤔 you can come back now everybody knows xD
I'm slipping, Noah.
It's been plenty of months now. Too many. Too many months of not knowing if you're-
These messages begin to sound too much like talking to someone who is gone.
You know what I mean Noah
You know what I mean
I dont like them Noah. I don't like my classmates. They pretend to like me. They don't. I know they don't. They're trying to. I'm trying to like them. It's not working out. I'd rather just stop
Hey Noah! Finally the weekend! Still gotta do tons of studies tomorrow, but its a solid excuse to avoid mom and grandmother. Have i told you about grandmother? Shes like, another copy of mom.
Weird thing is mom doesnt like her.
Is almost...afraid of her.
What is my life xD
Hmhm what has eyes been upto? Thinking about the future mostly. The past feels to long ago. The present...
Thats a thing...im not really here Noah. Most of the time...most of the time im in my head. Nothing bad, imagining stories and the like, but the thing is, its like i cant handle here anymore. Like if i focus ill realize how close i am to breaking
And I feel like i could snap any second and hurt someone
My dreams are disturbing. Genuinely increasing my self loathing, but now im going to give positive updates
Im slowly making friends in college. They may or may not be just putting up with me but i kinda dont think so, so thats good?
And i have a holiday this week, but thats kinda neutral news. Oh, theres an event in college. I love events. Love being an audience. Being on stage is nice but being the audience is pretty fun.
I keep seeing all these things about how we keep waiting for those who arent coming back
As always, i miss you alot! And- and!- i was thinking of making you a lil something. I dont know if ull like it- ever notice we talked more about the hard stuff and less about the "normal" bonding stuff? I dont really know much about your likes and dislikes- but if you wanna see it your going to have open cups xD and you cant leave without telling me you popped by. Its in the rulebook, somewhere.
Hope you find these messages as...idk. not weird? Definitely not creepy i hope 💀
So i got an updated about you, finally. Kind of. Slightly. Much appreciated, though
I think ill still drop by now and then.
But what brought me here rn was kinda...
Were you and turtle, i mean, friends?
Hey, Noah. Idk what to talk about but i thought that ive been away too long so i dropped by. Currently sick - stomach issues- not fun. Missing alot of people. Youre on the top of that list ofc. As well as on top of the list of amazing friends, good listeners, kind people...
Be safe, or ill set geese on you, no joke
@unassumingEyes
Hey Eyes. I'm sorry for peeking in. How are you doing?
@BuddyWhite
Noah, I hope life has been fair with you. If you ever comes back, please know that I'm here for you.
@Apeatrice Hey frnd, thats okay 🩷 im okay. Hope youre okay too
Hey, Noah. Thats becoming a very very common phrase for me now. Seriously, I hope this thread doesnt weird you out when you see it. If it does we can get it deleted. Do not spare my feelings, please and thank you
Stressing about exams but when did I ever stop doing that anyways?
Missing you, but you know that, too
We're alright. Its okay. Its alright. Take your time. We're alright
Hey, bud. Absolutely exhausted rn, hope youre fairing better. My life is weird, friend.
Homesick. For a country xD never cared much for the actual house. Not before moving not after moving.
Hmmm. I'll wait
