Miss you, Noah
@CatHanderOutNoah
I didn’t know where to post this, or if there’s any point in doing so, but I guess I kinda needed to. I want to say that when you’re back, I hope you find this but
But.
It’s more of an “if” than a “when”, huh?
I can’t be mad at you, or anything but proud, because you tried so so hard and for so so long and even when you saw no reason to you tried again.
Thank you for that.
I’m sorry if this means it failed.
Why am I making this, when what you said was painfully clear? Maybe it’s because part of me just can’t stop hoping and believing in you, and if I still live in a world with you, and you come back, well, I can’t have you believe you weren’t missed.
Because I do miss you. I insanely miss you right now. The day you were gone, it was like every fiber in my being was yelling your name.
The day you were gone.
What’s that mean for us, if the kindest, bravest, strongest of us is gone?
If, or when, and please let it be when, you see this, and think, what am i blabbering, I’ll try to say it more clearly and briefly,
I miss you, Noah.
To @CatHanderOutNoah, and all the wonders you are.
What am i doing, Noah?
Sometimes its easier to be angry, I guess
I hope i learn better
I know youre thinking something. Come back and tell me what, sometime. Ill wait. You know the drill by now, im sure
I have a flight on saturday Noah. Not a fan of those but its fine. Its fine.
Tomorrows my urdu exam. Its going to be so hard, but ill pass and thats something? Ill try to do better in finals. If mom lets me live long enough xD
Miss you. Really wish i could talk to you again. Listen about how your life is. Hopefully good. Hopefully better than good
I didnt know you for very long, did i? Before your first disappearance. We didnt talk much (enough) before your second-current-disappearabce, either.
I dont remember much of what we talked about. The essence of it, but not the actual convos. Still, even when forgetting, it is so easy to miss you. It was so easy to talk to you.
Youre not the only one i miss, you know. You kinda are the only one who might actually be back
just a reminder, we can have all this deleted, if you ever want. no worries
Hey, Noah. I found your old username (@CatHanderOutNoah) tagged in one of the 7Cups Online Therapy posts. Guess they dont know. Funny how we're all strangers, till we're not
Anyways, how're you? Eyes is a bit sick, but we've all had worse.
@BuddyWinte hey. Didnt forget you, dont even dare to think that.
So, i had a *** time recently. Oh, random memory. i swore at you once, just a little bit. I didnt swear back then, not at anyone, never dared, so- but i was kind of desperate, kind of overwhelmed. You were talking of giving up, you know, and it wasnt about me, its not about me, but the very thought-
Dont give up. Dont- just dont.
You did not. You did not come back in June, 2024 under a different username, and talk to me. If that was you Noah, I will scream. I dont care its been a year, call me sensitive and emotional but you were a kid and you were my friend and I still miss you, so just. Just be safe
**still missing you**
Do you ever get afraid that youll be like her? Your mom?
Im afraid im already like mine
Everythings so different here, Noah. Im not sure youd like cups as it is. But if you do pop by and see it, leave me a message, will you? And then ill stop with these. I probably should have stopped when i realized you were (are?) alright, but here we are. Weird mind.
