Miss you, Noah

@CatHanderOutNoah

I didn’t know where to post this, or if there’s any point in doing so, but I guess I kinda needed to. I want to say that when you’re back, I hope you find this but

But.

It’s more of an “if” than a “when”, huh?

I can’t be mad at you, or anything but proud, because you tried so so hard and for so so long and even when you saw no reason to you tried again.

Thank you for that.

I’m sorry if this means it failed. 

Why am I making this, when what you said was painfully clear? Maybe it’s because part of me just can’t stop hoping and believing in you, and if I still live in a world with you, and you come back, well, I can’t have you believe you weren’t missed.

Because I do miss you. I insanely miss you right now. The day you were gone, it was like every fiber in my being was yelling your name.

The day you were gone.

What’s that mean for us, if the kindest, bravest, strongest of us is gone? 

If, or when, and please let it be when, you see this, and think, what am i blabbering, I’ll try to say it more clearly and briefly,

I miss you, Noah. 

To @CatHanderOutNoah, and all the wonders you are.