Reconnecting
Hi @helgyafy @tinywhisper11 @mytwistedsoul
I hope you don’t mind me creating this thread. I’m sorry, I haven’t been online lately and I couldn’t find where we’ve chatted before. I think of you all often and the kindness you’ve shown me, and I wonder how you’re doing. I really hope you’ve been well. I’m sending you prayers. Please pray for or think of me too when you have a moment. Please let me know how you’ve been.
❤️
@WorkingitThrough2 💗
@Tinywhisper11
Love you all! 🎁 🎅 🎄
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas merry late xmas 💖💖💖 I love you all 💖
@Tinywhisper11 We love you too, Tiny sister! I hope you had a nice Christmas. ❤️ Happy early New Year in case I don’t catch you.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas happy New year 💖💖💖
@Tinywhisper11
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@BlueDarkAurora
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@BlueDarkAurora 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 poor kitty
@BlueDarkAurora @PiecesOfWhoeverIWas @Tinywhisper11 @WorkingitThrough2
Wishing you all a Happy New Year! I'm so grateful for all of you, and I hope the new year ahead brings even more opportunities for growth, healing, and happiness to blossom and bloom in beautiful ways.
@mytwistedsoul Wishing the very same for you, dear Twist!
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Thank you! ❤️
@mytwistedsoul thanks soul 💖💖 happy New year 💖
I wish the new year brings us all peace, love and happiness 💖 I love you all so much 💖
@Tinywhisper11 oh and don't forget to raise your left foot at midnight, so you can start the new year on the right foot😁💖
@Tinywhisper11 perfect! 😂
This is a realistic drawing of me with my superb balancing skills:
@Tinywhisper11 😂 Thank you! I love you too! ❤️
@Tinywhisper11 xD
@mytwistedsoul So beautiful!! 💖 Wishing you the same 💖
@BlueDarkAurora Thank you! ❤️
Feeling a little nervous with the privacy change banner that popped up when I logged in today. I read over it. Maybe the data collection has always been like that. I’m not sure if I understand it all. I don’t know if I want everything I’ve posted on here to be connected to my name, email, and shared with 3rd parties. I probably should have used a burner email when I signed up. I don’t know what to do with this information.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I think that they have always collected some data, to some extent. I skimmed through it and I know that I definitely don't understand it all. I haven't clicked accept yet though. I do think that you can change your email address though, if that would help you feel more comfortable.
It's my understanding that you can also use a VPN, although I'm not sure if that would help much.
@mytwistedsoul I did click accept, I didn’t even realize I didn’t have to. Maybe I will change my email., that’s a good idea. I do have a vpn checked on my phone, which phone is the only way I log on. So maybe I’m ok. I don’t know much about the vpn, I just checked the box for it a while back because it sounded good. 😂 Oh gosh, I’m a mess. Thank you Twist. ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas You're not a mess. :) I can understand your concern. This is an anonymous site and there's talk about personal information....
I'm almost positive I'll have to click it eventually, for now I just go around it.
How's everyone doing? You've all been quiet and on my mind.
You are beautiful.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas hehe 💖
Hii, how are you doing?
@BlueDarkAurora I love Cal’s character from Modern Family. He always makes me smile. 😊
I am, alright. 😂 I’m kind of alright. I’m great. I don’t know. 😂 My brain is a little funny. I’ve been thinking of you a lot. I hope you’re ok. You are so wonderful. I hate that life has been giving you so many stresses. I just know good things are coming to you. I don’t mean that to be positively toxic. I really believe in your spirit.
Please forgive my being tonight.
The world is so cruel, and you are a light beacon in it. I wish with everything the best for you.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas me too :D
Alright and great... A great alright, alright great xD Why is your brain being funny?
Pieces, I say this a lot lol but it means so much to me that you think about me and have such nice and lovely wishes for me 💗
I do type things but then don't post them lol it's mostly cause when I'm replying to you, I sometimes want to share and then say a lot of nothing. I hope that sounds like a compliment ^^ You're a safe space. You're a positive light in my life. Nothing you share with me is ever seen in a negative way.
@BlueDarkAurora sending you the biggest hug ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas It's nice to see you! 😊
@Tinywhisper11
@BlueDarkAurora hiiii💖💖 nothing is going on 👀👀 why what have you heard?? 👀👀 there are no basement bodies 👀👀
@Tinywhisper11 Ooooo Oooooo :O
@BlueDarkAurora
@Tinywhisper11
@BlueDarkAurora awwww your butt loves me 😁💖
@Tinywhisper11
@BlueDarkAurora Mrs. Potts was such a sweet character 😊
@mytwistedsoul We all need a Mrs. Potts :3
@BlueDarkAurora Omgosh yes!
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I’m just going to vent here if you all don’t mind, because I think you will understand. ❤️
I signed up for therapy here on this website last Friday. I’ve done a lot of therapy, but it’s been years since I’ve felt like trying again. Recently I’ve really had the urge to share with someone. The therapist they matched me with seemed really nice and qualified. He let me know they don’t talk over the weekend, which I expected and was fine with, and that he’d reply to me Monday. By Wednesday I’d still heard nothing. I had already shared my basics with him. I had been pretty excited to start Monday, and by Wednesday I could feel that I was retracting my vulnerability. I wrote to tell him politely I was going to go a different route, and a couple days later still no reply. The last time I logged in I just saw the whole chat had been removed. So now I have to go through the process of getting my money back. I’m sure that will be fine, it’s just very disappointing.
Also on Friday, I reached out to a number of listeners. Because I really hadn’t been doing well that night. It seemed as if as soon as I wrote, their light would go from green to red. One got back to my message a few days later, apologizing and saying they’d like to set something up later that day. I said that would be nice and kept checking back in, but they never showed. That was a couple days ago, and never heard anything still.
I didn’t feel comfortable connecting to a random available listener, so I tried to search for ones available who had good reviews and matched my topics. I’m sure it’s all just a timing/luck thing. I don’t think I said enough for anyone to even not like me, yet. 😅 I’m super frustrated, not with anyone because I don’t know their situation, but that the desire to finally talk got stuck. It’s like a knot in my voicebox that won’t come out. I imagine trying to talk to someone now if they wrote me, and I no longer feel the desire, even though something still feels stuck. I don’t know what I’d say. They’d wonder why I wrote in the first place, because I’d say I don’t really know. When I get like this, everything gets fuzzy and I forget what my thoughts are.
I know some of us have talked about listener issues, so I’m just, I know you care and won’t judge me. ❤️ Thank you for reading.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas That's a big step you took, finding the courage to try again. And the way you responded when the other person didn't hold up their part as a professional is praiseworthy too.
The disappointment is understandable and it's okay to not jump back into it so soon. Take your time 💙
The idea that sharing about yourself or talking about your issues would make you less likable, is just your brain trying to slide back into the familiarity of the time where you had to carry everything on your own.
You are likable and you hold so much value, no matter what you are dealing with in life 💗
I hope one of the doors you decide to knock on in the future, is opened by a warm, comforting individual who's there to listen and understand. And you'll always have me as a friend too, reach out whenever you want, even if it's just to share the not knowing.
@BlueDarkAurora Thank you 🙏☺️❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm sorry that this happened to you. I hate to say this but it unfortunately seems to be a recurring thing here.
