when u going to the time where u feel like u just wanna cry n stuff. get away from ppl preferably enter your room, lock yourself in then maybe just sit on a corner then bring your knees to your chest, then put your hands over them in a way that it looks n feels like u hugging yourself n just let it out, just cry bro tht way u become more free n shii then as u cry don't say to yourself why u crying be strong woman up i ain't a kid to cry ria this is weak no don't do tht. instead put i deserve to cry. i deserve to let it all out. i deserve to feel all of this. i deserve to be kind to myself coz no other peep is doing it for me. i infact deserve all the good things this world has. i deserve them all. i deserve to be super kind to myself i deserve it n i never deserved any negative shii i never deserved it
this path is not gon be easy nor is it gon be fast. prepare yourself to feel alot of ALOT, but trust me it's worth it. u gon encounter alot of negative emotions but in all those i want u to be kind to yourself even when it's hard, imma be supporting u from right here. u'll never ever be a burden to me fam. we all deserve to hear each other u don't have to be the bigger kid all the time. u acc helped me through alot of shii even if u don't k. coz trust me u never k what's happening in this side of the screen. u helped me through alot n i want u to allow me to try n help u okay? please let me in or atleast to scratch the surface. Proud of u gng proud of u so much u can argue tht i don't really k u but to tht i'd say do i deserve to be supported? you'd say yes, hmmm if i deserve to then why not u. glad u here fam
damn thanks for reading all tht. sorry if i got too emotional n shii. i probably overwhelmed u with all this. but i don't regret it. i'm not gonna stay strong imma say stay here. coz we weren't meant to be strong 24/7 even the toughest night needs to rest yeah...stay here fam keep on breathing. n if all u did today was hold yourself together then i'm proud of u for tht. u got this fam. n u'll always have a fam with us here. always a place to belong, ok?
@cozyshadow14 😭 i read all that damn , u write for living or something , u should really get back to writing sisi and thanksies
@hardtobeRia sorry for makin u read all tht. lol on writing for a living. idk if i can get back to writing. i'm sketching tho this days.
Oh nice what u sketching?
@hardtobeRia just random stuff from Pinterest coz I can't draw from imagination 😭😭.
@@cozyshadow14 i wanna see them if u want ofc
@hardtobeRia tuff timesss i can't take a photo coz using laptop 😭
Damn but when u get a phone def wanna see them fr
n the real u won't get banned dw we not banning u from ourselves fam. we lv u gng 💝
@cozyshadow14 yk if i get banned u wont see me ever right lol
@hardtobeRia whooo atleast we won''t see tht. i won't allow itsis
yooo wassah gng how we all doin
Currently in a bus rn going to the village😔, 16 hrs pray for me yall how's you?
@hardtobeRia broooo nahhhh tht soon. damn will u have wifi connection there or is it goodbye till January
😔😭😭bruuuu I recharged data so hope it works there the network there is whack
@hardtobeRia well we hope to hear from u gng fr well miss u ong
@valentinorossi46 fr. but imma go to the village on Saturday or Sunday we have no wifi there will probably be silent till January 5th or smth. take care of yourselves yáll when i'm gone.
Yesis damnnnn thats far
@hardtobeRia fr
@cozyshadow14 oh damn ill miss u for sureman tc of urself too n i mean im trying i always am
@valentinorossi46 real. u too Tino
ummm gng idk i wrote a poem if yall wanna check it out idk i think its kinda eugh but idk i judge myself a lot yk
I wanna see it , you write damn you getting cooler every day gng
@hardtobeRia its like ummm u can check my account n its there i think? idk gng
@valentinorossi46 Oh wait your bio its u that wrote that I thought they were lyrics
Inspo Eminem ?
@hardtobeRia nah nah my bio is lyrics but like yk how below its like recent forum posts n shi its there
Using a phone dont think it shows there
@valentinorossi46 Tinooo!!!! so happy u here gng, yeah i wanna see the poem
@cozyshadow14 lelele yess umm its in my recent forum posts or like search "tw her." and u can find it yhhh
@valentinorossi46 ok bet
ummm iono im js gonna post my poems here i feel *** making yall look for them too
tw abuse
sometimes i sit and wonder
was it ever meant to be this way?
should i have just been better?
was it my fault anyway?
did she ever even think
about what she was doing
i can still hear the sound
of the pipe hitting my face
blood pooling
i felt the warmth on my head
then my hands came away from it red
i looked up and saw she was crying
desperately holding me in her arms
i though to my self
is she lying?
my brain was supposed to sound an alarm
but i sat there and didnt do nothing
i was shocked at her instant switch
i couldnt think i dont remember
being able to do a single thing
except sit there and try not to flinch
some days she would just hit me
some only yelling sufficed
some she would suddenly be
kind to me and i was enticed
i only wish id realized quicker
the pattern that was clear as day
she would hit me with vigor
and yell and insult and laugh
yet everyday felt grey
now i finally get it
she really doesnt love me
i cant leave but at least i split
normality from this ***
attempt at raising a child
who doesnt
want
to be here.
@valentinorossi46 🫂🫂 sending lots of hugsss , man that beautiful fr im sorry u going through that , but damn that beautiful, dont forget me when youre famous fr
Tyyy fr but I ain't getting famous no time soon cuh
One u will, trust believe in urself , u a talented young man fr
@valentinorossi46 *hugs* bro u deserve them fr. like i don't even k what to say but just tht u don't deserve any of tht ***
@cozyshadow14 ty gng fr *hugs back*
aaand heres another one theres prolly gonna be a thrid one soon lol
tw/ sexual assault
i can still feel his hands on me
touching, reaching, feeling me
that smirk
so smug and sure
i dont think ill ever forget
i dont know what for
he did all that to me
did i do something wrong?
was this just meant to be?
i didnt think i could belong
i thought this stuff
could not
happen to a guy
oh god
please tell me
why
oh why
oh why
i didnt want for them
to feel on all my skin
yet i did not resist when
his hand slid beneath my waistband
while he held onto my chin
i cried but didnt stop him
and despised myself for it
i let him do what he desired
let him satisfy his grim
egoistic
wishes
using me for his pleasure
i remember i hit
him later that night
i came to my senses
i began to fight
i threw a punch and broke his nose
yet he still took my innocence
my hope
and now i plead
if youre like him
stop yourself
youre ruining them
theyll hate themselves
for no good reason
except those dirty
filthy
rotting
yet invisible
marks
on their skin
@valentinorossi46 🫂🫂more huggies , sorry hope they rot in *** frfr proud of you for standing up to urself im sorry no one deserve that thats another beautiful poem sappy ria came out
@hardtobeRia damnnn i made sappy ria come out??? holy shi cuh well tyy
@valentinorossi46 sorry T tht u had to go thru tht fr n sincerly sorry i couldnt be here when u posted it, life was lifing
@cozyshadow14 damn well i gope life wasnt lifing too bad n again ty for the support
i wrote more gng but im fine trust i aint finna do nothin stupid okay?
tw/ su!cidal ideation, self inflicted injury
i sat on the floor
staring infront of me
i locked the door
i never wanted to be
this way
i was just a kid
they kept saying things
i hated it
i stared at my arms
littered with cuts
big and small
old and new
deep and shallow
i think i really hated my guts
i dragged the knife across my skin
i carved your name
remember when
we were still small
and didnt worry
we had it all
my memory is blurry
i realize that im crying
the idea is petrifying
yet so freeing
a few minutes and itll all be over
i notice that the blade is still on my skin
red beads starting to cover it then
i get up
no time to waste
set up the rope
in an unsteady haste
i stand on the stool
loop round my neck
i suddenly think about school
maybe if i was cool
then someone would surely care
now my arms just hurt
as my eyes start to water
my cat walks in
alert
she runs to me
her body hotter
i scramble to get out the noose
i fight
i grapple
i fall
i breathe
i see that this
is not my end
but theres no bliss
this is a trend
i try
and fail
at even death.
🫂man wish I could hug u fr I dont even like hugs but for i would give u one fr ,u a great writer dont why u doubting urself , n yeah kinda get that feeling been a coward lots n lots of time hope I'll just stay a coward cause if I dont then yeah
@hardtobeRia ty for the hugs man means a lot n dont do anything stupid either, kay?
@valentinorossi46 Im surrounded by people 24 7 so I won't sigh ,u too allright
@valentinorossi46 happy u here gng. thanx for being here fr u matter more than u think bro u fire
@cozyshadow14 ty gng we trying fr
@@valentinorossi46 Im tinos number one fan ✨️ love ur writing fr , making me miss writing for sure u got a talent for this n he keeps getting cooler
Oh n *** all them peeps that hurt u n made u feel this way fr hope karma gets them real good 👍🏾
@hardtobeRia fr kid just keep on getting cooler gng
@hardtobeRia tyyy guys means a lot to me fr idk ion feel like im that good at writing or cool cuh 😔
Not everyday I find people cool in my eyes you'll forever be cool , n ur writing is great fr ,if someone says otherwise im catching a plane ticket n coming to kick their *** fr
And damn its 11am rn bruu been awake since 7am the time is working slow went in the field cane out n its 11 nah the days r so longg someone come get me
@hardtobeRia id love to come get u cuh but i cant 😔
abt being cool and my writing tysm but i mean its hard to think about myself like that
😔im chilling with pigs for good network its rough out here
And ikik sorry man
@hardtobeRia damn cuh they good company at least? miss talking to u in chats fr gng
They stink so bad , like why do pigs smell so bad , this man i gave him food he's still looking for food the kore he moves the more it smells
Yeah me too miss teen side fr