eish the shadow is bk after a long time. aye Tino u writing is so good imma have to disagree with Ria on tht i'm the number fan okay u k what we all your biggest fans. and damn bro you've gone through alot i hate all tht for u especially the one who did tht *** on u proud of u tho for standing up for urself. man thank God the cat entered at tht time i would never have gotten an opportunity to k such a wonderful person fr.
@cozyshadow14 damn guys im rly flattered lol umm yh im glad my cat stepped in too man id prolly be de ad if not for her
but yeah we trying fam
🧍🏾♀️come get me someone plss im tired
I've been working alot might as well gain some biceps at this point
@hardtobeRia oh wow it looks so beautiful bro fr. and yoooo the working i feel u for tht. eish strong Ria on the move
Im tired here , January is so far
@hardtobeRia fr going tm n already feeling it.
ummm i wrote more teehee
tw/ drugs and alcohol abuse
somedays were really tough
i couldnt bear the yelling
i went out to clubs a lot
and drank and smoked and snorted
my life was rough
but im not telling
on all the people whod done me wrong
im just saying that sometimes
the only distraction you can find is a bong
a tab or bottle
a cig or a vape
a substance a drink
just an escape
but it never helps
not for long anyway
the high never lasts
and you have to face
the messed up world
that we live in
but you dont want to
so you chase
the same effect
except it wont be the same
youll have to take more
use heavier things
just so it can affect
your broken self
the same way it did
the first time
soon the drugs will be kings
and youll be simply a servant
a vessel
a body
just an observer
of your own future and actions
youll hope to quit
and hate being like this with a passion
but its not that easy and simple
its not rational
you want to stop being a junkie
yet you buy your meth
smoke your weed
and snort your coke
hide your high from the people you care about
not to dissapoint them
youll try to get out
of this wretched loop
but youll fail and some might condemn
themselves to this life
theyll stop trying
theyll lose their fight
theyll keep lying
to keep themselves high
some will keep going though
through withdrawal and all the urges
come out damaged
tired
beaten down
but sober
and some
will be proud
of their achievements
some will be loud
about their improvements
yet if they do pass
this awful test
they wont be fragile like glass
but they might be a mess
theyll try their best
even if its mediocre to others
just know theyve done more than the rest
to be mothers
fathers
brothers
sisters
and lovers
friends
and not junkies.
🙂↔️im stealing some of those lines man be spitting bars out here , 🤏🏾last line anyways proud of u always will
@hardtobeRia ya rly think im spitting bars? damn tyyyy
Yup , wont lie about that
@valentinorossi46 and you'll go through it T and just know tht even if u feel like you've failed and all we'll never think of u as a junkie okay
@cozyshadow14 ty gng we trying frfr
guess what? theres more!
tw/ verbal abuse, body shaming. ed
those words will be stuck in my head till the day i d*e
youre so fat
i wish i could lie
but im not a mat
i have *** eyes
i see youre overweight
you need more exercise
but maybe its fate
for you to be like this
oh i wish i could forget
this insane diss
i heard when i was twelve
its been in my head everyday since
playing like a broken record
everytime i sit down for a meal
oh you shouldnt eat that
itll make you even more fat
i simply watched as i ate less
as my weight fell quickly
i was a mess
i looked sickly
but only to others
i was still fat in my core to myself
if only my mother
had stopped to think about the effect
her words would have on me
maybe i wouldnt be
so wary of how some calories affect me
but she didnt care
she still doesnt
she can only share
how what i do wasnt
a thing back when she was a kid
how everyone was normal
there were no disorders amid
even though they just werent formal
now everytime i look at a plate of food
i feel like a war rages inside of me
yo cmon man you know it tastes good
a few bites wont k*ll you
cant you see?
oh my god no!
you better not touch that!
would you really stoop so low?
all thats got to give is fat
i cant control
the thoughts and urges
i cant find a loophole
all i can do is try and purge
these things out of my head
i dont eat breakfast anymore
usually dont feel like lunch or bread
i only eat dinner and furthermore
throwing up has become the usual
even if i dont feel well after
this lifestyle is brutal
i hear no laughter
anymore
i want to stop
i wish i could
but i cant swap
these thoughts so crude
for new ones
so i just sit
staring at the plate
eating bit by bit
to have a fate
and chance at beating this
My now fav poem writer is here lemme go grab some popcorn 🏃🏽♀️🍿
@hardtobeRia fr aye T u my fav writer rn be proud fam
@@valentinorossi46 holy *** dude this hit home frfr,🫂huggies you're perfect just they way u are man (also telling this to myself sigh) sorry peeps told u otherwise
Okay this one is nicee dude u spitting bars damn
Wish food wasn't my worst enemy rn
@hardtobeRia aye Ria, we haven't talked in ages. i feel u on tht. mine works the other way instead of keeping off it i eat more to deal with the stress i hate it bro
Im coming back from a bar man itsdark out here
@hardtobeRia damn what.
Didn't stutter 🧍🏾♀️cant see well without my glasses in the dark too
@valentinorossi46 damn T u spitting bars rn, i feel u on tht fr. and debunking all of those comments aint an easy thing fr n i feel u on tht, uuggghhh i wish ppl would js keep them comments to themselves fr. we with u bro
My song that was on repeat today 🙂↔️cause why not is.... formula by Labrinth
And i only come on this app to reply to you guys atp
@hardtobeRia me too bro me too. cups outside the forums is welll
@cozyshadow14 any yoooo i missed my fav DJ
Dj ria on the beat 🤸🏾♀️
yall im so flattered by ur reactions like tyyysm 😭
ion think im that good but ima trust yall on this
ima try n keep spitting bars fr
I think your good , as long as its a way of expressing how u feeling than its cool, but ur writing is good n the more u write the more u get better at this
Im so tired rn , might be saying nonsense
@hardtobeRia nah dw cuh u make sense fr n ty for the support frrr
tw/ verbal abuse, body shaming. ed
those words will be stuck in my head till the day i d*e
youre so fat
i wish i could lie
but im not a mat
i have *** eyes
i see youre overweight
you need more exercise
but maybe its fate
for you to be like this
oh i wish i could forget
this insane diss
i heard when i was twelve
its been in my head everyday since
playing like a broken record
everytime i sit down for a meal
oh you shouldnt eat that
itll make you even more fat
i simply watched as i ate less
as my weight fell quickly
i was a mess
i looked sickly
but only to others
i was still fat in my core to myself
if only my mother
had stopped to think about the effect
her words would have on me
maybe i wouldnt be
so wary of how some calories affect me
but she didnt care
she still doesnt
she can only share
how what i do wasnt
a thing back when she was a kid
how everyone was normal
there were no disorders amid
even though they just werent formal
now everytime i look at a plate of food
i feel like a war rages inside of me
yo cmon man you know it tastes good
a few bites wont k*ll you
cant you see?
oh my god no!
you better not touch that!
would you really stoop so low?
all thats got to give is fat
i cant control
the thoughts and urges
i cant find a loophole
all i can do is try and purge
these things out of my head
i dont eat breakfast anymore
usually dont feel like lunch or bread
i only eat dinner and furthermore
throwing up has become the usual
even if i dont feel well after
this lifestyle is brutal
i hear no laughter
anymore
i want to stop
i wish i could
but i cant swap
these thoughts so crude
for new ones
so i just sit
staring at the plate
eating bit by bit
to have a fate
and chance at beating this
@valentinorossi46 f cuh mb i didnt see that i already posted this mb cups hid it for me idk enjoy reading it again or sum lol
Thats my fav one well second fav can't choose bewteeen the two
@hardtobeRia ooh do tell what r ur favess
The junkies n this one or sh one hm which one to choose
Wait just realized they might be allowed them
Im so tired. Tired of smiling ,making jokes,being around people i just wanna sit in a corner with my headsets on,im tired of pretending in okay that im not dying inside, 🙃, just realized I left my rubber band at home in the other town now have to find something to feel pain , funny how I find comfort in pain ,oh this peeps dont believe *** that comes out of my mouth I aint even joking ,I say something it just gets mized im pretending so I guess have to bear it 🤸🏾♀️ when is this life ending me tired I wanba rest
@hardtobeRia damn cuh that sounds hard af 🫂 glgl fr js know if ya need to js rant abt shi im always here
Maybe u shld like try n have more time to urself if u can do that yk
Peeps everywhere, ur nane could be called n u just say down im fr tired
@hardtobeRia sorry Ria bout everything, u don't have to pretend to us though we r here to hear the real feelings yk if u cormfortable. we may not have any good solutions n all but one thing fs we gonna listen to u n if u want the u without filters.
Thanksies
bye guys last time on this year take care of yourselves bro u both fam to me now the only ones who atleast show care tc guys have a happy new year i hope
Bye bye hope village treats u well better than me I hope 🫂huggies
@hardtobeRia me too bro hope u good man.
@cozyshadow14 tc gng well miss u a lot waiting for u back right here
Managed to buy data bundles but got into an argument with my brother just for it damn bro y does he have to be just so....damn bad.
@cozyshadow14 damn cuh thats tough but ey glad u got data th but make it last yk