Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @mytwistedsoul
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You seem pretty dang awesome, and I'd love to get to know you if you'd like <3 No pressure if you don't... Feel free to ignore if you're not interested <3
Also, check my last post under general
@jesusredeemedme2425 Dating Kiara?
Not really but yes XD
@jesusredeemedme2425 😂😂
Check my newest post under general. Beware the TW…
@jesusredeemedme2425 Will do! ❤️
They removed your apathy post?
I noticed! I asked why. No response yet. Eh. It served its purpose as a vent. It doesn’t matter if it exists anymore <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 It's annoying though. Because I see it more and more and they're supposed to let people know why they removed something
I’m hoping it’s a glitch. The app and site seem to be very glitchy lately…
@jesusredeemedme2425 Very very glitchy 😕
I was told it was deleted because it was a crisis post.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Writing about apathy is a crisis post? Omg this place....😐
Yet there's been a post about s*icide up for days. Makes no sense (smh)
I feel like a fat greedy whale.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Aww what has you feeling that way? I don't think you are, but it's not important what I think. It's important why you think that ❤️
Because of my ED
Hey :)
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hi :)
Whatcha up to lately? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Not much. Put a new motor in the truck. Got a puppy. Had snow and it got cold out. You?
TELL ME ABOUT THE PUPPY! <3
I’ve been working on Christmas cards and trying not to lose my mind in general XD
@jesusredeemedme2425 Puppy is a mixed breed but a smaller dog. He's 4 months old. His name is Yogi :) He's teething and has turned into a furry land shark!
Awww furry land shark hehe! Is he eating everything???
You too?
@jesusredeemedme2425 He is! Leaves, sticks, the cat. Everything
Yes. The past few months have been exceptionally hard. I'm sorry you're struggling too :(
He ate the cat??? Lol
How so? I’m so sorry :(
@jesusredeemedme2425 If any part of something fits in his mouth he tries to eat it lol
Can't seem to shake a depression. Had a realization about a few things with friendships. Sort of like you did I guess? How they're onesided
Sounds like me. Lol
Yep. That’s me. Check my latest post…
@jesusredeemedme2425 About your listener? It's always hard losing a good listener and they're actually so hard to find. It's happened more times than I care to admit. I hope you can find another person that you connect with but it might take time and then to build a relationship with them... To open up .. it takes time ❤️
It’s so hard to find a good one. I’m constantly getting ghosted.
@jesusredeemedme2425 The ghosting has really become a problem here. It's frustrating and disappointing. I always ask them to just let me know instead of ghosting but I guess ghosting is easier
I'm sorry that happens to you. I wish I had someone I could recommend to you :(
Yeah. Imagine if I was worse off mentally than I am…
I have some nice people I’m talking to, but none I fully click with, yk?
@jesusredeemedme2425 I've brought that very argument up with higher ups a while back. There really isn't much they can do to stop it though. I just wish the listeners would give a little thought to how it comes across to us members when they just disappear. :/
That click is pretty important and helpful because it makes it easier to open up. I really hope you find someone soon! ❤️
Yeah… We are not toys to be played with and then discarded.
Haven’t really found anyone… I feel quite alone.
@jesusredeemedme2425 This is true. I know it's voluntary but I do wish people took the role a little more seriously
I'm sorry you're lonely. It sucks. I always noticed too that it's a little quieter here at cups during the holidays 😕
Exactly.
Christmas hurts.
How’s Twistie doing? <3 How are the alters and the system as a whole? Everyone getting along?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Trying not to lose your mind. Very relatable.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Holidays are just hard. Some of us have good memories but some also have bad memories. It's hard walking a fine line to let the ones that enjoy it while also validating the feelings of the ones who don't 🤪 Other than that just dealing with depression and the constant urge to isolate
How are things with you?
That third sentence tho.
Oh yk, Kiara being Kiara. Sigh
@jesusredeemedme2425 I think Kiara is too hard on herself. ❤️ Have your migraines been better?
On and off. I think I may be identifying triggers. But I’m also not sure lol
Did you see my cultural food posts in Around the World??? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I hope you figure out what's causing them. I know headaches, especially migraines are just horrible to deal with
I have lol! They're pretty cool!
I think I’ve figured out some triggers. But idk. Lol
Check out the 5 I just added lol
Are the alters getting comfy being on 7Cups?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Triggers can be hard to figure out because it could be a combination of things. Migraines are horrible
Right??? I even found a medical website that basically said (very paraphrased lol), it’s hard to tell what triggers are because it could be different if the weather’s different or if it’s a Tuesday or something lol
Am I a safe person?
Right??? I need to add more African ones. Any ideas??
Hehe, I ran out with Ailura and Amanda recently lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 Lol exactly! The barometer dips a degree or the wind is blowing from the south. Do you get them more at home or at work?
Kinda both, but mostly they start at work… Maybe it’s a trigger somehow.
Awww thanks <3
True. I should do something random like Antarctican food and see how people react lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 Maybe it's the lighting? Or if they use a cleaner or something? Someone's cologne or perfume?
In Alaska they eat moose nose and fermented walrus flipper 😬
Maybe…
Why tho???
Also I forgot to respond. Again. Sorry!!!
@jesusredeemedme2425 I have no idea 😂 I guess it's so cold up there during the winter maybe they try weird things as a challenge? 😬
That's ok ❤️ I need to do better at checking in too
Maybe they do what people here do in some places… use everything on the pig except the squeal!
Tis all good. I was just having a moment with that post…
@jesusredeemedme2425 Lol! That's almost disturbing 😂 I guess in some places they try to avoid too much waste, so everything is put to use 😬
We all have days like that ❤️ I'm glad you turned here for support. There's a lot of people here that care about you
Well, didn’t Native Americans use bison bones as tools? (Always thought that was cool) <3
I just sound like I’m whining. And then people scold me for sharing how I feel.
I’m not enjoying my ED rn…
@jesusredeemedme2425 They did! They used everything they could. Which is amazing because nothing went to waste
Right???
Yeah but I get scolded for saying all men are abusive. This is literally my experience for the past few years though…
No, not really. I just eat constantly trying to fill a void.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Yeah they tell people not to generalize. But it's hard not to when in your experience every man has been abusive. In their attempt to make sure no one feels attacked, they end up attacking you and invalidate what you're feeling. I have to admit that sometimes those statements catch me off guard, I don't take it personally. There's a big difference between knowing a few nice guys here and the world you live in.
I know good guys exist. I mean, you do! <3 But it’s hard to accept that because every man I get closer to ends up being cruel, a user, lecherous, or has anger issues.
I try not to click links usually. What is it, so I can look it up? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I know and I'm sorry that they do. I hope that one day you meet a good guy that treats you the way you deserve to be treated ❤️
It's confidenceineating.com it was about emotional eating
I doubt it.
Thank you! <3
How’s Twistie? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 It does seem hard to meet nice people in real life. Everyone seems to have a motive or agenda 😕
You're welcome, IDK if it's any help but I thought maybe it might give you some explanation to why it happens
I guess I'm mostly alright. I'm a little concerned about something at the moment with cups. I'm just hoping I'm wrong and nothing comes of it 😅
Sorry, I’m super behind on my penpal chats!
True. Especially men. :(
What happened? Is it bad? (You don’t have to tell me) <3
Watching anything good lately?
@jesusredeemedme2425 Aww that's ok. I get behind too. Like now 😅
I fail at responding lol
I doubt it.
I didn’t even know you hosted chats!
What does opening and closing a room mean?
I’m watching “Inside: USA” rn :)
I’m exhausted and trying to rest, but also accomplish things lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 Nah it's not failing. Side tracked by side quests 😊
Just beaten down and tired maybe. Or just overwhelmed by the sheer number of notifications lol! But I cleared them all out today finally <3
Yeah…
What’s the difference?
What do you have to be good at?
Interesting :)
Very. It’s an intriguing premise. Look it up <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 Omgosh the notices do pile up quick don't they?
Right??? I wish we could just not get notifications for upvotes. Lol
How come I never seem to hear from the other alters anymore? Or am I just not realizing who I’m talking to lol
Just wanted to check in on you and see how you're doing ❤️
@jesusredeemedme2425 They should have it so they can be turned off and on if we choose.
A mix of reasons. Exhaustion. Masking. Not coming on as much. Fear of being mocked. Realizing that we're often not given the same level of compassion as other people here. We often feel overlooked and that hurts.
Right??
Do people here mock you?
Why not the same level of compassion?
I’m not ok :’( Check my last post under general
I'm so sorry. I meant to reply Sooner. They used to make fun of the whole Did. Guess it's hard for some people to believe
I think maybe people are nervous or afraid
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now. I'm sorry it took so long to reply. How are you doing now?
That was a different alter than I usually talk to <3
It’s definitely an intriguing concept. It took me awhile to grasp it myself. Switching alters to protect yourself… With all my trauma and PTSD, I’m actually jealous of people with DID, being able to somewhat compartmentalize their trauma. Does that make sense? Is it bad? Is it weird?
True. Many people (myself included) are nervous or afraid of people who are different. That’s why I’ve been watching the Special Books for Special Kids videos. I want to make myself accustomed to people who are different. So my mind doesn’t think anything is unusual about them, and just sees them as people… people who need love and think and dream and create and know way more than we realize <3
I’m the one who takes forever to respond lol! I’m alright. Trying to figure out how to rest and also be productive. Neither one feels good tbh.
How is Twistie doing? How’s the internal world?
@jesusredeemedme2425 I think it makes sense and isn't weird at all. It is actually a very common feeling among trauma survivors, and exploring it through that lens can be very validating.
How would I explore it?
I totally get it. I know there’s a lot of negatives to DID, which make it really hard. I just wish my brain would compartmentalize…
Do you guys ever wish you didn’t have DID?
Exactly! My brain, like everyone else’s, tends to think different is… different, I guess, but I want to train my brain to think different is beautiful and awesome <3
What is rest XD
