For Kyler Buddy 💜
Hi Kyler 💜 I hope you’re doing okies 💕
This is just a little thread I’ve made that can be our forum space (: like we were talking about earlier in TCR.
Edit: Please don’t read/post here unless you’re Kyler or me. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Miss you ni...im kinda sad rn...
@kylersartpace *huggles if okay* was thinking about u :( For some reason my browser wasn’t letting me load your post yesterday, it was stuck. I forgot to try again later i’m so sorry :( why u sad?? 🥺
where is u friend..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Its ok... and because i hurt a friend by mistake and now shes mad at me...i havent heard from her for over 24 hrs...
@kylersartpace oh no friend :( I'm sorry. i hope she's ok, have u tried calling her or smth?
makes sense you’d feel sad tho :( since you didn’t mean to hurt her… I've done that before too it doesn’t feel good. :/
@LoveMyMoonflowers
It wasnt physical hurt ni...were online friends...and i see her as a sister to me...
@kylersartpace i know it wasn’t physical friend. Sorry, i thought u meant irl friend.
i wish i could help…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Its ok...its my own fault...like always...
@kylersartpace *hugs if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm... talking to her a little now...
@kylersartpace how is she???
@LoveMyMoonflowers
atm asleep...she said she was in hospital...
@kylersartpace wait is she okay??? I'm so sorry 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni...i sorry...for everything...ive been the worst friend ever...ill never forget u...and i mean that...sorry again...
@kylersartpace kyler friend no :( Where’d you go….
u don’t have to be sorry friend *hugs* (if okay) and no ur not the worst friend ever. If anything, i am. :') kyler friend what happened..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
...
@kylersartpace ……
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sorry...
@kylersartpace no don’t be sorry.
Im sorry i didn’t mean to be insensitive. but i was. im sorry..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i am sorry...no matter what...
Hi…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey u ok?
@kylersartpace yeah… i guess. Are you? ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u can be honest with me and im good actually its my bday today (missiing u a lot though)
@kylersartpace oh god
‘i missed your birthday
😭 what’s wrong with me
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its fine...
@kylersartpace :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni...1 thing...im sorry...for everything...and really sorry in advance...
@kylersartpace no, kyler. i don’t think you have to be sorry. You didn’t do anything friend ❤️ i’m the person who’s always disappearing and randomly coming back and hardly saying anything and Idk i’ve just not been a good friend and i feel like ive been too quiet and been neglecting all of my friends here too much. I'm sorry. you don’t have to be sorry for anything, I can’t think of anything you did wrong to me, seriously. *offers huggles* (no pressure)
i wish i was a better friend but im just terrible at it. And i mess everything up all the time. and idk. People say that everyone leaves at the end and it’s true but ive been the person to leave and abandon everyone in so many stories.
i’m sorry. 😭
I know sometimes you feel like you did something wrong but i promise you, you don’t have to be sorry. You have my word on that okay? ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i didnt do something wrong yet....but i will...and im sorry for it...atm i wish we could go offsite...ik we cant though...but yeah...im sorry....in advance...
@kylersartpace what happened…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
nothing yet...
@kylersartpace 😭 your worrying me…
mm…
:(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im sorry...
@kylersartpace i’m sorry too. I wish i could tangibly help. i think ik what u mean. if im wrong im sorry but all i can say is… it’ll just leave a hole behind if you do it. :')
i’m sorry
i feel like i said the wrong thing
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u said nothing wrong...
@kylersartpace okay…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im sorry ni...if i could say more...i would...
@kylersartpace Me too, kyler… *hugs if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hides into hugs a little crying* i want to be back there...
@kylersartpace in teen land? I know… it’s kind of quieter here nowadays. I hardly know anyone. the people i know hardly come in the rooms…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i just...i need to be able to talk to u...like properly...
sorry if i misunderstood
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no u didnt...im sorry...ill shut up..
@kylersartpace noooo…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no...?
@kylersartpace i mean no, you don’t have to shut up or anything u ain’t bothering me
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok...but...i kinda have to...something happened...
@kylersartpace oh…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sorry....sorry....sorry...sorry...
@kylersartpace I’m not mad at you friend ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
but...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni...im probably gonna leave cups...
@kylersartpace :( i don’t want u to leave…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i might be...something happened last night...and i tried to talk about it in rooms...and some1 told me not to say those sorts of things...so i cant talk about me anymore...
@kylersartpace :( Oof. do u wanna talk about it here? I'm sorry they censored u like that. Cups ain't the same anymore. it hasn't been for a while tbh
@LoveMyMoonflowers tw...
i relapsed...after5 weeks clean...i had said i was gonna talk to a friend..but gotta not pass out before then because i was really dizzy from the relapse and felt faint...thats when they told me not to say things like im gonna pass out...even though i knew y i was so dizzy...plus i get dizzy a lot...and doctors dk y i faint and stuff..so yeah...i cant open up anymore...
@kylersartpace I'm so sorry friend ❤️ i’m glad you were able to tell me, but ik the feeling after a relapse isn’t a good feeling. i'm sorry that happened friend. On top of that u should have been able to have a safe space to say what’s going on :/ Is you still feeling dizzy? is there any way Ni friend can help? :(
i know it can feel horrible but mistakes happen and trying to recover from sh isn’t a linear journey. We mess up, even i still mess up, but when we fall down, sometimes we just need someone to be there and help us get back up. You got this friend. *huggles if okay*
And i’m sorry for the late reply ❤️ i had to get off cause there was some school stuff i had to take care of. I'm good at getting behind w school. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im the same with getting behind on school...i have a lot to do for college...thats due this week...and then yeah...still feel a little dizzy...
@kylersartpace oof. i'm sorry friend. college is probably a lot more stressful than school :/ You should probably rest friend if u still feeling dizzy and not okie in head :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
not okie feel that 100%...then dizzy yeah because ive had 9 calls come in over the course of an hr all are spam calls and its just sending me crazy...i feel bad for my friend who has to deal with me like this rn...
@kylersartpace *hugs if okie* ugh spam calls are annoying :/ do u know why u might be getting so many at once? wdym by ur friend has to deal w u? sorry me got confuzzled
me little worried u not sleeping friend, what time is it there? (not me telling you to sleep while im awake at 4 am lol, oop)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its 1:40am...and my friend had to deal with me because the calls sent my anxiety crazy....i couldnt breathe...i was shaking...dizzy....everything...still am dizzy...and feel weak and very much on edge...but my friend fell asleep...they are still on a call with me though so im not alone...i always struggle with sleep...ill pass out at some point...no clue y i got so many within the hr...but i think they were all the same place...it seems to have stopped hopefully...because otherwise i aint sleeping and i have college tomorrow...its bad enough im probably gonna get in trouble tomorrow for not having some work done but i can focus on it rn to try get it done...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
miss u...
@kylersartpace hey… 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u ok...?
@kylersartpace yeah, im okay. Missed you. hru? how’s college? 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
havent been in all week weathers been real bad but its been stressful...as for me...i aint been good tbh...
@kylersartpace ohh i see. so it’s probably snowing there? im sorry weathers been bad. :/
*huggles if okay* you wanna talk about anything? ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah it was...will be back next week...was meant to be back wednesday but the teachers for the 3 days cancelled the classes...and idk...nothing to talk about...its 2 bad...
@kylersartpace ohhh i see. weather must be pretty bad then :/
🥺 ❤️ huggie??
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Yes pls...my chest is really hurting rn....and i feel regressed...but have to hide it on here...
@kylersartpace *huggles* ❤️ it’s ok u don’t have to hide it in this space it’s just us here
@LoveMyMoonflowers
I do have to hide it...plus...rn im in hospital...so 100% cant be little...
@kylersartpace you in hospital?? what happened friend 😓 Are you safes, what happened :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Im safe just fainted earlier while in public...
@kylersartpace Damn are u alright?? do u know why u fainted?? ☹️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
No idea y and im fine i just want to go home
@kylersartpace ack i disappeared… :') Ik u wanna go home. 😕 it’s not fun being at the hospital…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Its ok...i got home at 4am luckily didn't have to stay in...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ni...how old are u...i cant remember...
@kylersartpace uh. 15. why you ask? 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Because i miss u...and want u back rather than just through forums...
@kylersartpace wish i could be on adult side too im tired of teen side. idk anyone anymore it’s just newbies in the rooms. :') at least most of the time our friends ain’t there…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Yeah...i wish off-site could happen 2...but ik it cant...im rarely on cups anymore...
@kylersartpace yeah ik what u mean. I think about it sometimes too with one of my friends. but it's too risky lol. :') Idek. i don't spend as much time on here either…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Yeah...i just hate everything tbh at this point...
@kylersartpace everything about cups or everything in general?
(also i might disappear in a bit cause i haven’t slept and i gotta do school in a few hours… :/ i need some sleep before then T-T)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Both...and its ok u sleep...i should sleep but i dont feel like it...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
miss u...
@kylersartpace
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u ok?
@kylersartpace yeah. I just miss everyone here, my friends. Hru? 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
not the best...and i miss u guys 2...
@kylersartpace yeah 😓 You wanna talk about anything?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
idk how to talk anymore...
@kylersartpace yeah, i get that…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
I wish i could talk to u more...
@kylersartpace i'm trying to come on here more often. but yeah…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok
@kylersartpace what u been up to lately?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
other than college nothing much been crocheting
@LoveMyMoonflowers
missing u lots...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey umm i might be not using cups anymore idk for sure but yeah
