Rome, Ni and Mustard’s Space 💙
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rome buddy :0 this is just a little space where i can check on you and mustard the super spider-hammie 🐹 hehe. 💜 (that’s her new nickname now 😛)
(me also appreciate for always being so caring and awesome as always 🌈 and always somehow finding ways to cheer me up 🥺💙 thank you. it means a lot that you care 💜 me hopes you know i’m always here for you too! 🌈)
Im soz just read the other posts 🙁🙁 hugs fr im so glad ur here n im so gratefull ur my friend u honestly dont see how great u realy r
Im sorry lifes is like this
@DarkerPlaces Hugs it's okay it's not your fault. I'm sorry life's been *** to you too
@DarkerPlaces *hugs* Thanks. Your great too tho.
i still think i'm evil or something tho i have this ridiculous complex in my head and will not for the life of me believe otherwise somehow. I make it into a joke and laugh about being evil bc that's the easiest way to cope. I'd die if i didn't have humour or if head mate K didn't have humour. But tbh i do feel like i have a lot of reasons to think i'm bad.
TW/// on my 1st bday my grandma on dads side tried to food poison me I think i told u this before but when my mum first told me it didn't bother me much. I thought she might be lying bc she don't like my grandma on dads side but then again her lying wouldn't make sense bc my grandmas a literal *** and Mum doesn't lie and spread stories about people for fun or for spite. Mum ain't like that. and theres pics from my first birthday of me being sick and tbh didn't bother me at first but every now and then I fixate on it and get frustrated and wish i didn't make it past 1st bday
If ur grandma did do that shes a evil old witch
@DarkerPlaces She's mean but tbh i feel like stuff might have been better if i didn't make it past my first bday. Not sure if i overthink it but a lot of stuff would be different and some things would be better.
I wrote an essay you don't have to read that
I read it n its horrible what u went throw fr
@DarkerPlaces I don't remember any of it thankfully i was a baby. But tbh I don't have much sympathy for even my child self
I hate she did was awfull tho ni hugs
@DarkerPlaces *hugs*
I guess but what if things would have been better if she succeeded 😕
Wouldnt have been better fr
@DarkerPlaces
i tried to rationalise… if she'd succeeded, my dad would probably not be happy at all and he’d likely cut off with his relatives. Mom and my bro would be safe. Mom wouldn't need to go through all the crap she did later and maybe she'd be easier on my bro. Sure a lost baby would cause them some grief but i can't help but think they'd probably get over it. I'd just be a baby idk if i'd be that important
But on the other hand things could have got worse too my parents might have split up and things would be harder for my bro. So idk could go both ways but I just get frustrated that it didn't work.
Its just so crule its like she was intent on ruining ur family 🙁🙁🙁 hugs im sorry
@DarkerPlaces *hugs*
Sometimes i think my lifes the worst cos even my parents got rid of me n dint want me but some other times i think maybe my parents didnt have a chose maybe
@DarkerPlaces *Hugs* I'm sorry rome. Tbh that's a big weight to carry. All the wondering. All the questions. The not-knowing. Being told you’re not allowed to know. It's a lot 😕 but yeah tbh we don't really know maybe they didn't have a choice. *hugs*
I hate how life has treated you and lots of other people but i'm glad we at least found each other somehow and even tho it's just on cups I'm glad i have you
Im glad i found cups n u n other cups friends
@DarkerPlaces Ugh i can't heart it. The heart limit is yet another ridiculous Cups thing smh 🤦🏻♀️ I’m glad too
Sameeee horrible heart monster eating our hearts lol
@DarkerPlaces Fr it's so annoying. Ridiculous heart monster
Iv spoke to my foster mum so much about my bio parents n she dosnt no ether but she said her theory is maybe my real mum was very young
@DarkerPlaces Yeah tbh that makes a lot of sense to me too *hugs* I'm sorry Rome
Life sucks fr n im so sorry we dint get the good glitter
@DarkerPlaces I'm really sorry too.
I got some good glitter tho. they came in the form of kind people. You and B and eyes and soul and my friends ani and madi. It sucks though because it seems you all have gotten too much bad glitter and it's ridiculous and it hurts 😞
Hugs fr so glad i have u n honestly mean that so much
@DarkerPlaces *hugs* Same you mean a whole lot to me dude you actually have no idea. You mean so much.
I wish we had been born as real twins
@DarkerPlaces Same. i always wish you were my real bro bc you feel so much like one. i think we'd be awesome twins.
Tbh wouldn't want you to be in my fam tho. My parents are generally nice but the religion gets in the way of some things
We could just be a tribe instead lol 😂
@DarkerPlaces lol we could be a tribe and our staple is cheese and we could make our own culture. That would be soooo much better though bc in our tribe being weird would be the normal and we wouldn't need to feel like crap for being ourselves :'D
Yessssssss love thissss we the cheese cult lmao
@DarkerPlaces We need a special name for our cult 🤔
The Cheese Cheifs
@DarkerPlaces Hmm 🤔 No it needs to be something fancy. Maybe French? Fromage is cheese in french. Maybe Le Fromage? It sounds like a fancy mafia cult thing but it just means The Cheese 🤣
Lmao the fromage friends of cups
@DarkerPlaces Wait wait wait I’m making a whole story now lmao
So like Le Fromage can be our god or something 🤔 Or our cult leader 🤔 Or its like whoever the cult leader is so in this case its u bc u overthrew the cheese god and replaced him so now ur lord cheese 🤔 But its like no one outside the cult knows who Le Fromage is its like ur kept secret and only us cult members know 😈 And its just this cool mysterious name Le Fromage and everyone thinks it's like this powerful god but it's just a teen boy who likes cheese lol. But also happens to be the cheese god 🤔
Lmao im the cheese king 👑
1 time me n my foster mum had a convo n i said i hated my bio parents n that they were evil n should never of even had me n she said she thinks that maybe my bio mum did want to keep me n thats why she didnt get abortion but maybe she was real real young like maybe 13/14 n she probky wasnt allowd to keep me
@DarkerPlaces *hugs* I'm sorry rome. Yeah that's what i was thinking too. I'm thinking she may have wanted to keep you too bc if she didn't want you she may have just gone with that option. Your fc mum makes a lot of good points. 💙
Tbh parents can be pretty ick when things like that happen with teens. They tend to be on the not-understanding side of things 😞 People misunderstand teen mums a lot and it sucks
Sorry i don’t mean to trigger you 🙁
U aint ur helping a lot n sorry i dont mean to change topic ignore me
@DarkerPlaces Dw you’re not changing the topic. We're just two traumatised teenagers online who happen to have twin souls. 🥲 it's just two friends talking is all 💙 it's okay bean
Hugs thx so glad we can just talk about anything like this fr cos irl i dont talk about stuff
@DarkerPlaces Same. It's hard to talk about stuff irl. Also sorry if im slow with replies lol
@DarkerPlaces Same. It's hard to talk about stuff irl. Also sorry if im slow with replies lol
Dont b sorry all the replys is jumbled up now on my app lol
Hugs yeah i think ppl just think i should be happy n gratefull cos i have a good home n my fcs look after me n stuff n i realy am gratefull fr n i am thankfull but still get upset about my bio fam
@DarkerPlaces It's natural to feel upset about it tho. Tbh I don't understand why people would say that. Just because one part of our life is ok doesn't mean everything else is ok. It's good you have your fcs and that they're kind folks but that doesn't take away from all the other pain and stuff 😕 *hugs* 💙
Hugs frrr
Yk if that is the real truth n my bio mum wasnt a bad person n if she acc did wana keep me n stuff idk i might wana try meet her 1 day if thatw as allowd n if she also wanted to
@DarkerPlaces I hope it all turns out alright tho rome. 💙 Hope your still here on cups when your 18 lol no pressure but I kinda do want to be there when you get to find out stuff. Tbh if she's out there and she was a good person and wanted you she must be missing you a lot. Might be hard for her too 😕 The system is so strange 😞
Hugs thx i think if she is a good person n she had no chose i think id maybe wana meet her n idek anything about my bio dad
But my doctor said that ADHD is genetic so i think 1 my parents has ADHD
@DarkerPlaces Yeah that makes sense. Could be your mum or your dad tbh. Maybe if you one day get to meet your mom she'll be able to tell you
Yeah but also dont wana get my hopes up cos they might not be good ppl
N ppl make fun me cos of it n indis always sayin stuff like "wheres ur mum? Oh yeah nobody knows" n idk ik its stupid but its hurtfull sorta i guess
@DarkerPlaces Yeah there's that too. There's lots of maybes 😕
Ima PM you this is waaaaaayyy too hard
Rome? Rome No. No. No. NO. no. not you, and not now. no. no. how you? how can it be you?
Rome please come back rome tell me your okay rome. Rome tell me your alive. Dude rome please. rome. Rome it cant be you you cant be gone thats crazy not you never you anyone else everyone else but not you thats crazy No NO
No rome pleade rome please please rome
Rome? Twinnie? beanie? rome please? Where did you go? are you safe, are you okay? Rome?
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i miss you
U need to come back it feels so wrong without you.
I just hope your okay. miss you twinnie :')
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